𝑨𝑳𝑨𝑵𝑰

Five

I groaned as I turned around to see who was calling me,

I grabbed my phone off of my bedside table.

I looked at it only to see that it was Max the mother fucker that started all the bullshit going on in my life right now.

I just turned the phone off ignoring his call and tossed the phone back on to my side table and laid back down,

Only for my phone to ring again.

I screamed into my pillow while slightly tearing up "God I just want to sleep why is everyone bothering me" I cried out as I sat up on my bed and grabbed my phone once again.

Looking at the phone seeing that it was Max that was calling me back to back,

After the fifth time I finally decided to just answer his call

"What!" I practically yelled over the phone

"Damn! don't have to yell I was just checking up on you" he said with too much, audacity

"You check on me?!, Like you aren't the reason my life is going the way that it is going right now oh okay" I said with a  growl

"Look I'm sorry things got way out of hand and I just want us to be friends again" he said apologetically  but I wasn't really sure if he was being sincere.

He will make it seem like he cares just to make fun or humiliate you so I just replied to his words with a hum.

"Look I know you might not believe me but I'm telling the truth."

" I just want to be friends again" he said but I still wasn't sure

"Look you put me through a lot and I'm not going to sit here and act like I'm not hurt and I'll be damned if I sit here and act like nothing happened"

"I don't even know if I forgive you..but I know I can't, just be your friend again and act like you didn't do shit, like could you at least give me some time to heal"

I uttered , on the verge of tears. I won't lie I miss my friends, especially Max because we were a lot closer than everyone else.

But I can't just bring him back into my life like he didn't let them bully and hurt me everyday when he could have help and the fact that he is literally half of the reason that they started to bully me.

I miss him but I don't think I can just bring him back into my life just yet.

"Look Alani I understand so just call me when you're ready to talk" he told me before he hung up the phone I just sighed and put my phone back on the side table and laid back down.

I laid there on my pillow with my face buried into the plush fabric I hadn't realized that I was crying until I felt my once dry pillow become damp,

I sat up and wiped my tears and flipped my pillow over to the dry side and laid back down.

I was so frustrated with this whole situation, all because my ex-friend was insecure in her relationship and instead of talking to her boyfriend. About her insecurities and her thoughts on him being disloyal, she took them out on me.

I laid there in my bed thinking about the situation and what could have been done differently and let's face it everything could have been done differently,

Maybe I should take max up on his offer and talk to him again because I'm not going to lie I have been pretty lonely. These past two months but I needed to give myself time to heal from everything that happened which turned out to be pretty hard and long.

I finally decided that I wasn't going to be able to get any sleep I decided to get up and go to the park since I obviously wasn't going to sleep,

so I got up and went to my closet and changed into some sweat pants and a T-shirt  I also grabbed a sweater since it was a little chilly out this time of day.

When I was done getting ready I walked over to my phone and picked it up from its place on my nightstand I also grabbed my headphones.  I threw on some lipgloss  put my hair up into a high ponytail and I was done.

After making sure I had everything I walked out of my room and over to my sister's room and gave her door a soft knock,

I heard a faint come in and I reached out and gave the handle a twist as it opened slightly to give her a small
sense of privacy by not barging in

"Hey do you want to go to the park with me" I asked hoping that she would say yes not really wanting to go alone and fortunate to me she said yes and that she would be ready in a bit so to wait in the car.

I was in the car waiting on my sister to finish getting ready so we could go to the park with me since this was my weekly workout, pray for the girl or guy that gets with me because lord knows I'm a lazy bitch

After sitting there for what felt like forever my sister finally comes out

She walked over to the driver's side wearing a pink off the shoulder dress with some white sneakers her hair was in two big puffs on the top of her head.

She got into the car and sat her phone down into the cupholder and put the key in the ignition and started the car, she said that she needed to stop by the dollar store to get something.

I forgot what she said mostly because I didn't care, I just hummed and sat back in the seat.

We were now at the dollar store walking around looking for whatever it was she was looking for,

I was bored and hungry and I really just wanted to eat some hot wings but decided to just get some hot fries while I was here.

I let out a huff and turned to my sister "Hey I'm hungry so im gonna go look for some hot cheetos or something you want some"? I asked and she just shook her head no and waved me away I  shrugged my shoulders and walked off to the chip aisle.

I was on the aisle with the snacks looking through the chips trying to figure out whether I should get the lays cheddar and sour cream chips or hot cheetos lowkey wanting to buy both, I let out a sigh I was really conflicted

I just shook my head and grabbed the Hot Cheetos  and went off to go find my sister.