Artist Love Better | Jensoo

Chapter 10: I Can't Do This

Jennie slowed down and pulled over in front of Jisoo's building. She stared at the wheel, not knowing what to say while hundreds of thoughts ran through her mind. She felt Jisoo's gaze on her and turned to face the raven. They stared at each other for a moment in silence while Jennie tried to form words in her head. Jisoo was faster and broke the silence.

"See you on Thursday then." She watched as the raven reached for the car door and opened it. She widened her eyes slightly, trying to say something that would make the girl stay longer. She couldn't tell, however, why she wanted her to stay.

"Definitely, see you on Thursday."

Jennie smiled timidly and locked gazes with Jisoo once more. This time, however, the raven didn't hold her gaze. She watched as the girl returned the smile and stepped out of the car, shutting the door behind her and starting to walk towards the entrance of the building.

Jennie kept staring at the girl as if she moved in slow motion, thinking about the evening they just shared and a ton of feelings flooded her chest. She had enjoyed herself, enjoyed the company and she found herself wanting to have Jisoo around for a while longer.

Her heart was beating fast and she was breathing heavily, confused with all the thoughts in her head.

You like her, you idiot. Do something about it.

A voice in her head kept repeating those words as she still looked at the raven girl who was reaching for something in her bag. She watched as Jisoo retrieved a bunch of keys from her bag and placed them in the door's keyhole.

Without thinking, she opened her door and stepped out of the car, calling Jisoo's name.

"Jisoo, wait!"

She speeds up her pace as if this was her last chance. She needed to reach Jisoo, she needed to show her somehow that she had so many feelings inside of her that she couldn't understand.

"What's up?" The raven asked as she reached her.

She wasn't in control of her actions, she wasn't in control of anything. She was letting her body take her, lead her to where she felt like she was supposed to be. She ignored the raven's question as she carried on walking towards her. When she was close enough, she reached out and grabbed the back of the raven's neck, pulling her towards herself and crashing their lips together. She wanted that kiss, she wanted to be close to Jisoo, she wanted it to be more than just gentle. She felt the raven lose her balance and lean against the door, putting one of her hands on her waist and the other behind her neck while pulling her even closer. She felt her heart beat faster with surprise; Jisoo was kissing her back, she felt like the girl wanted that as much as she did. She captured the girl's lower lip against her teeth and bit it very lightly, feeling goosebumps grow on the raven's neck. She opened her mouth slightly, gently licking Jisoo's lips, asking for entrance that was instantly granted. She felt the raven's tongue touching hers as she pressed her body closer to Jisoo's. She felt like this was exactly where she was supposed to be. It felt right, it felt good. She caressed the back of Jisoo's neck softly while their tongues explored eagerly. Jennie couldn't help but release a soft moan as the kiss deepened. She felt Jisoo losing balance once more, as if the raven's knees were weak. She captured the girl's bottom lip between hers once more and pulled back slightly, resting her forehead on Jisoo's.

Her heart was still beating fast and she felt a smile growing on her lips. She still didn't know what to say as she took control of her thoughts and actions.

"See you on Thursday." She whispered without opening her eyes.

For some reason, she couldn't face Jisoo. She wanted to, she wanted to look into her brown eyes but she couldn't. She then turned around and walked back to her car, starting it and driving off without looking back. After a few blocks, she pulled over once more, trying to catch her breath. She felt like she just ran a marathon. She rested her forehead against the wheel and closed her eyes.