last chance

Love is a second option of life, this measured by the root of success in life
To love and to be loved is the greatest armour of success..

As a person , for me love is just an option that can be choose by a strong person who can  be success for there goals

I've loved once but I never success in it.. I choose to listen the word of other  people , I try to look my future by there words.. I've believe them... I treasure it until now still here in my mind running, stopping  my tears and still it's killing me until now I don't know how to  scaped on it . How could I continue my life without doubting .my self that why they're so unfair..

Do I don't really deserve to be happy?
Do I even deserve to be loved..?

Being broken 💔 gave me a reason to be strong enough to carry all the problems everything give me a reason to fight enough .

I do everything just to satisfy myself that I'm a happiest person in the world..  I did Love myself, I fixed the  parts who's broken I study  how to handle everything in my own , but I never satisfied, I never feel that I'm happy...

I use to  captured those moments when I'm alone, the darkest outside reminding me that I'm just alone.  feel the hug of the surprise blown air listen to the heart beats of the  whispering wind

I use to hate listening 🎧 music  even I know in my life I'm  not complete without music 

I almost  forgot everything about me
I also forgot  that I'm still alive  honestly I forgot how to be me.. how to be happy..

Standing in the window looking   outside
Makes me says... I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.. if I stay here just a little bit longer.. if I stay here won't you listen to my heart  ♥️

I'm dancing in darkest song of my heart..my eyes don't stop  letting go my tears.. my heart want to be picies like no have reason to be beat..

Now tell me how I'm I suppose to be believe what's the real meaning of love..

There is more important than love...
No need  to expect anything  just do it from  inside your heart ,  let it be the main   reason why you are still fighting  no matter what happens in the  past..

A true happiness is  when you let go someone      fulfill his dreams... 
You can't say you're  in love  seeing your someone  having his hardest life because of you

No matter how  hurts it is you'll going to accept and let it go...  accept that there going to be happy even they're not with you..
 
Me as an in Love I'd choose him to let go .. I've choose to be hurt than to be happy i know  I hurt him by choosing that decision  he maybe hate me so much ... Actually not maybe he really angry and hate me now..

Seeing there' happy makes me the most happiest , there smile makes me crazy... Love is full of  sacrifices

Sometimes I also want to stop and admit to myself that I've lost them... But I can't..,  I can't change there smile into the saddest for having me...

Until now I'm still waiting for the time that there is someone who could sacrifice also his everything for me.

A man who will give up his everything to be with me.. a man who is  willing to be with me no matter what it is..

I'm so surprised that ,  like  I don't want even believe my self  I'm I really so hard to be loved??  Do I'm so pathetic in this fucking world  for me 

So funny , I thought I will just find this word from the book I always wanted to read.. I can't imagine myself saying all of this word..

I'm just a human being anyways, I also dream to get married someday to the man that I always saying my night and shinning armor ☺️☺️