𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 ~ 𝐓𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐀𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐣𝐢

8. Shadows

I was so distracted with M taking her home that I didn't notice the 15 missing calls from Fatgum, it was at that moment that I noticed my microphone and ear buds were missing.

My body felt lighter, like under a spell

I felt good

For the first time in a while, I felt happy

But now I have to deal with a lecture, like a teen that went to a party when their parents told them clearly not to go

My feet trailed me to the agency I've work in for a year and a half, swallowing thick and a rage in my stomach, completely aware that I wasn't going to receive a round of applause

I went directly to his agency, I know I am in trouble..

Because of a girl..

I take the elevator to the last floor, Fatgum sitting in front of his desk looking at me disappointed.

Walking to take a closer look, he was silent.. Too silent for my taste

I really fucked up..

It took several minutes, none of us wanted to start talking. He obviously was hella worried about me and I could see a bit of anger in his eyes.

I was reckless

I acted like a freaking kid right on my hero work

I wanted to change my clothing really bad, I was ashamed of myself for disrespecting it

-Do you have anything to say?- Fatgum's voice is different, I've never heard him sound like that before, at least not with me -You scared me to death, not answering your phone and muting the mic, what were you thinking? -says as he crosses his arms

"I'm sorry.. I'm so so sorry"

I'm sorry, please don't hate me, it won't happen again, that wasn't heroic on my part, please.. Sorry, I'm such an idiot, I was reckless, I am stupid, sorry Fatgum, it was an accident, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry, please forgive me, sorry, J apologise, sorry..

-I..I just.. I wasn't.. -I sigh at my clumsiness, I always end up stuttering and ruining everything.. I'm an idiot- I lost them.. -I murmur and prepare myself for his anger

-Wait.. You lost the mic and ear buds?! Tamaki what happened in that Café? -His tone is assuming things that I'd never do to a woman without the consent and not wearing my hero suit- Did you lose control on yourself?

I'm a piece of trash but I'm not that kind of trash, what the actual fuck are you thinking about me?! Come on I barely talk to people, please just stop, my Lord I'm such a douchebag

-No!!!- my voice breaks, my ears are steaming, I'm not blushing, I'm mad..- I just MET her, how can y..you think I would do such things, a..and in my hero suit!! -I rest my face on the wall, I'm desperate I just want him to understand..- This is too much for myself!! - groaning.. I can barely recognize my voice at this point- I have to attend classes, exams, train, patrolling and now I have to investigate my crush from childhood because she might be a member of the Shie Hassaikai.. - come on man, stop crying.. - Is not that I still like her, it's.. it's jus..t that.. I miss doing things.. for myself.. I don't.. I don't have time for myself anymore..

"I am not myself anymore"

-Tamaki.. - I feel Fatgum's hand on my shoulder, he doesn't know how to react at my rampage, but I don't know what to do either- Why don't you let me interrogate the waitress? She might speak to me if I use the right words, you should take a few days off - He really is trying to calm me, but that doesn't change anything..