Girl With Fake Smile

Chapter 6

It's 8  o'clock when I suddenly pop up my head  from pillow. I rush into kitchen searching my mom  to complain  for not waking up early. I saw  my mom in kitchen preparing breakfast. She was dress in mathra half Kira with blue  sweater.

If I were ask to describe my mom, I would tell everyone that she is the most beautiful woman in the world. She has got her natural black silky hair.

She like to keep her hair short. She would complain if my hair had grown long. Me too never  used to keep my hair long than shoulder length.

I shout at my mom , " why didn't u wake me up? I'm getting late for school" I said almost about to cry without knowing what to do.

Still she was calm.   

" Samten, today is Sunday. Hope your brain is working"  she said with smiling but last part with more of joke.

I felt embress and guilty as  I shout at my mom for no reason.  I nag at my mom to let me sleep liltle more running around her like lost puppy until she give me permission. I rush back to my room for sleep.

I was about to close my eyes when I remember  what  Namgay said the day before.  Remembering what he says, I can't go back to sleep . It's not that I'm happy to hear him saying dear and calling us couple, but I'm worried that what if others  suspect us as couple, if someone overheard our conversation that day. What if all students hate him like me?  No, no, I should stop talking to him. Others may treat him like me with hatred without any reason because he is talking with me. I said to myself and get out of bed to go for short walk to refresh myself.

I wash my face dress up myself. I wear red  hoodie and pink pants. I hate to do make up and I don't even apply cream other than sunscream. I hate wearing makeup unlike others. I saw my mom drinking tea, watching TV on sitting room. I  pick up biscuits from  table and rush out of house saying I wanna go for walk before she could say anything.

I was walking listening to music cherishing every moment.  At that moment I forgot everything that happens to me and I was another girl who is full of happiness.  Without reason I'm feeling  happy  and I can feel my mind at peace. I sat down under big tree which give me shade from sun. I can see grass and flower surround me. I wish and pray my life to experience such happiness every moment.

It's was already five o'clock .I knew why people always define time as something that goes slow when your bored and move faster when your enjoying. It's my first time I experience time flying  faster. With this happiness, I smile, a real smile. I think  today will be my last day to feel sad as well as my first day to start enjoying every moment without carrying fake smile. With these I smile and went back to home.

When I reach home, I can't wait to share my mom how refreshing it is to walk outside and how much I enjoyed. I walk into house still smiling. When I was home I saw my mom standing  in sitting room. I saw my mom  sheding tears looking at me.  

I asked " what ha...".  

 Before I could finish I saw my two sisters  and brother sitting on sofa. I was shock to see them suddenly at home without any news about visiting us. My eldest sister, Zangmo was wearing red t-shirt with black  jacket and black jeans. She has straight hair hanging till armpit. I can see both sister has wear heavy make up. Both has straight their hair as they got natural curly hair unlike me. I only was born with straight hair.

Second sister, Cheki was dress up in grey sweater with pink jacket and black jeans. My brother( third elder) Tshering was wearing black gho. He has cut short hair as he too had got curly hair. Actually I was glad that they visit us but they all give me look which is full of hatred. Seeing  the look they gave me, my smile that I had before all fade away like thin cloud fading into air.

I  thought to myself that I shouldn't judge them by the look they gave me.  I had no idea why my mother cry when my siblings are here to visit us. My mother serve them tea. Without a single words we sat there watching TV.  

I look  into my mom's eyes  to   search any reason for sheding tears earlier but I  don't get any. But one thing for sure, I can say that she is not happy about their visit. My heart break into pieces whenever I saw my mom crying. When my mom notice about me looking at her, she act as if she was happy by smiling. Again my heart break to see my mom faking smile to make me happy. I return her smile ensuring everything will be alright though I  don't know why was she so sad.  

After few minutes of sitting there drinking tea, I  excuse myself from them and went into my room so that I can study for a while. After studying for a while, I help my mom  to prepare dinner. I didn't ask anything to mom  knowing that she need some time. Me too wasn't in mood to start conversation. So we just prepare dinner in silient. After some time, we ate dinner. No one start conversation, but three of them give me weird look, time to time which makes me uncomfortable.

I ate faster and leave to my room fade up with their weird looks. I had a bad feelings about their visit for some reason.  I lock my room and start  studying biology. I get bored of studying after few hours, so I open wattpad apps and start reading  few poems by Shakespeare. I sleep after reading two to three poems thinking that tomorrow I should  go to school.

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