kill my boyfriend

the begining

My boyfriend and I...

We met each other a long time ago. He is from an island in Portugal called Madeira, i am from tge north of portugal, a city called Aveiro.

They say portugal is a little country, because it only haves 10 million people living there. Compared to london that have 8 million people,  portugal is tiny. 

So, we know each other since we were very young, and a couple months ago he asked me to be his girlfriend, I,  obviously, said yes.

Today, i regret that. 

I mean, no one wants to be in a relationship like mine.

He never talks to me, he never says hi, he never calls. I could be death now and he wouldn't even know.

I tried to fiz things, but it didn't work. 

I tried to break up with him, we always go back together. 

But i'm getting tired, you know. We don't speak for a week now.

It's frustrating. 

I think is because i don't want to have sex now, and he does, so he gets mad everytime we talk about it. The thing, is that he only talks about it.

I feel like a whore.

Wait wait wait wait wait, why am i even telling you this?

You probably don't want to know.

J just wanted to talk with someone.

I bet no one's going to read it. 

I'm so lonely man...