"Stuck on the Past"

-- APPRECIATE life even if it gives you great pain. because after your greatest fall a new you will be formed.

But how could i appreciate this quote when every time I fall instead of rising I end up seeing my self falling over and over again. I always see myself stuck on the past that I CANT change any more regretting the things that I've done. now here I am reminiscing the memories which i cant take out in my mind it hurts but what else could i do ? it always coming back ..

i cant do anything perfect but beside for being clumsy all the time there nothing all i can do stuck in the middle of nowhere which no one could help .. trying to move on trying to improve myself but how??

there nothing i can lend on even my own parents left me behind were so close but so far away always bring me down ..instead of helping me to rise every time i fall but they always there doing things to make me discourage me .. leaving me hanging on the place that I don't want to..

They say life is just a spare wheels sometimes on top sometimes on bottom .. but my life is like a defective wheels always on the bottom that no one dare to repair ..

Even my self cant repair my own defective .. own weakness .. i cant do better always BITTER ..

They always compare me to others but im not like them .. but IM ALWAYS ME ..

TRYING to be someone trying to be one even though i cant achieve what they want me to do .. =)

 

 

-- thank you