I hate myself. I'm tired and sad almost all the time. Sometimes I think that my friends think I'm annoying and that they hate me. That my friends only keep me around because they feel bad for me. I don't like to ask for things because I'm scared they will hate me for wasting their time. I hate the way I look, I'm overweight, I'm ugly. I don't always feel this way. Only when I have nothing to distract me. When it's just me and my thought. Late at night when I should be asleep but I'm not. Some time I cry when I think about this stuff, but most of the time I just keep it bottled up. Some times I wonder why I was even born if were all just going to die in the end. Sometime I wonder why I feel this way, I'm always laughing, and smiling with my friends but I'm just so tired. Sometime I wonder If my friends actually do like me and actually think I'm funny. Sometime I wonder if I'm depressed, or just over reacting.
-J. M. Arkels
