Broken Promise (An Connor Franta & O2L Fanfic)

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter 16 <3

Dark Paradise – Lana Del Rey

 

 

JC stood still trying to read my face. He scanned my drooping eyes with a worried look on his face. I hung my head down feeling a shiver up my spine.

“What happened?” JC whisper knowing I was hurting. I opened my month about to tell him but I didn’t know what to say. I shook my head wiping my eyes making them red. I could feel my cheeks heating up. I told him with my piercing eyes to leave it alone.

“Is Connor here?” I repeated louder this time. JC nodded his head and moved out of the way to let me in.

“He’s in his room.” JC said coldly to me. I stared at him questionably but ultimately ignored his tone. I walk past JC feeling a cold shiver on neck.

‘Why is he being like this?’ I ask myself not understanding. I dragged myself up the stair feeling my stomach twist and turn. I brushed my hand across the railing. I watched the tips of my fingers shack furiously as they glided on the railing.

‘What am I going to tell him?’  I ask myself racking my brain for an answer that doesn’t exist. It felt like I blacked out because within seconds I was in front of Connor’s door.

I bit my nails just staring at the door like an idiot. I run my trembling hand through my baby hair from in front of my face before knocking on the door slowly. I wish I could just fast ward through this part but it’s going to be painfully slow because that’s sadly how life works. I heard a mess of noise quickly after knocking. The door opened swiftly almost frightening me. My shoulders went up as my body reacted to the quickness. It’s almost like he was waiting for this moment.

Connor's face was hardened and cold scaring me, I had never seen him like this. As soon as his brain processed it was me his expression immediately changed. His face relaxed and softened. He scanned my anxious face seeing right through me.

Before I could say anything Connor pulled me into a tight hug. I left my hands to my side not hugging back. I felt grim and awful. My head was pounding like a drum, I felt like throwing up. He didn’t do anything wrong but I did. 'We stopped, we didn’t do anything.' I thought trying to convince myself.

He pulled out of the hug with a smile plastered on his face. He was so happy and I’m about to ruin everything. He rubbed the back of his neck, I could tell he was nervous. He gave me pleading eyes grabbing my sweaty hands.

“Nothing happened with Kylie. She…” Connor yelled anxiously hoping to convince me.

“Connor, I know. I know. Kylie told me.” I smiled gripping his hand equally hard. For a second I forget about what happened with Adam. I was happy put my brain kept reminding me and everything came tumbling down once again in my head. On the outside I am smiling but in the side I am slowly falling apart. I am being ripped apart from the inside by my own self.

‘How can I be my own enemy?” I asked myself really wanting an answer this time. But no answer can just my mind going in circles again. I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t get an answer. I am slowly dying and I can’t do anything but feel everything.

“So everything’s good.” Connor said rising his eyebrows waiting. That’s my queue to tell but my mouth stayed close. I wanted to rip open my mouth but I didn’t move. I just nodded my head giving Connor a small smile. His grin got bigger, I didn’t think that was possible. Connor grabbed my waist pulling me to him. He planted his lips on mine. His lips were so soft I felt like I was in a trance. My body was with Connor but my mind was somewhere else.

‘How could I?' I repeated in my head.

‘I kissed someone else that’s not Connor and feel sick thinking about it. I betrayed him.’ My mind won’t just leave me alone.

'I didn’t know. I thought him and Kylie…' I stopped myself hurting.

Connor picked up my legs wrapping them around his waist. He buried his head into my neck as I held tight onto his obviously ignoring my brain that was screaming at me.

"I love you." He whispered in my ear. Ouch! That felt like a knife being jabbed into my stomach.

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