Imagine yourself in a deep hole that you were trapped in forever, Well i been through a lot which caused me to feel that way. I had someone in my life who was there since i was a baby and he saw me grow but he was that one reason why I would feel horrible and terrible. He was very sick meaning sick in the mind like something was wrong with him but really he was normally fine. Just the actions he did was a disaster. He would lie, make problems, Upset people, and much more. I understand he had tough time growing up since his mom wasn't really there as most mothers were.
I shall now share my story with you and maybe you can relate or understand but i hope nobody could relate because the things he had done to me and my family is something that makes people speechless. If your wondering who this "He" is well its my step-brother. He would wait until everyone would be asleep and have me do things that no child around 5 or 6 years old should know or do. He forced me to touch places that him and him only should see and touch. Since i was so young i honestly had no idea was happening in a way.
I hated when my parents would go out to places and me and my brother stood home with that monster. He would grabs knives and matches and scare us so we would listen to him. You might say," oh my god!" but only if you were there it was like a scary movie. There was a time when he would hurt me and brother so bad that we could do nothing about it because we scared for our lives. Everyday I would think I'm in danger and there was times I thought I was going to die.
I bet your wondering "why didn't I mention this to my parents", Well most actions my step-brother did they knew but most they didn't because I was scared he was going to hurt me or my young brother. This happened for about 8-9 years until i turned 12 years old and I had the courage to speak out one day while in dance class.
One day after lunch me and my friend were walking down the halls to dance class with my favorite teacher who understand everything and loves talking to us about anything. Well that day we were in a circle and we were talking about children who got abused and raped. I felt that was a very touchy subject so I was the one to keep hush until class was over and i couldn't take the issues I was going through with my step-brother anymore. So I was brave and asked my teacher if I can speak to her and so I started off saying," I had a friend who was being touched in the wrong places." I said "Friend" because I wanted to see her reaction and I wanted to bring my issues in little by little. She had replied back saying," Who?" I had said," Me." After I said "Me" I started explaining everything that was going on because The issues that was happening with me needed stop but I needed someone close to me to help.
My teacher had took me to guidance and I have to explain everything to her which was very hard because it was like I have relive everything I was telling her. I thought I was going to break down into tears but i didn't because i felt embarrassed. After i finish explaining everything guidance called my mom and dad and my parents came to the school right away. Is was like everything was harder then i thought because I tell my mom everything and the fact i didn't tell her this really hurted her when she found out. My parents had arrived to my school and My principle was there and my teachers also my parents. I couldn't look in my parents eyes at all I just wanted to run away when I saw them. My parents decided to take home and they didn't even say a word to me except my mom said," Why did I tell them and not her?"
I honestly didn't have any words to say I was so ripped apart inside my heart. I had so much mixed emotions. When my parents and I arrived home I went to my room and started to cry inside m pillow. I felt like i did wrong because my parents were mad at me for me telling my teacher and having my principle find out and stuff. I had memories roll everywhere in my brain I had moments when I wanted to run away and never come back.
Next day my school had to report it to social services and I was like ," Omg did I make a huge mistake?!" My mom had told me I was in danger of getting taking away from her. Couple days passed and there was a school play and the whole school was there watching and that moment came when my teacher took me to the priciple's office and I was asked question by social services. The lady who was asking me question was asking me many questions such as my brithday and pets then she got to the real part. After she was done asking me questions there was a point school was finished and I went home and my mom gave more news that the lady was coming to my house.
I felt inside everything was going to fast and that I thought I regreted what was happening. When everything was happening my step-brother was still living with us and I did not make any contact with him. The good news about everything that my parents made a descion for him to go to florida and live with his mom forever away from me and my brother. The lady had days came over and looked around my house to make sure my house was safe and clean and then asked my brother questions and my parents questions.
Weeks passed and she came back again and asked few more questions and asked me," If i wanted to go to theropy?" I replied saying," No because I thought it made me look like a crazy person." So months passed and my Step-brother was long gone and my family started getting back to normal.
Even though he left I will always have the horrible memories in my brain but he is now gone and my family hasn't been happier then ever. Today is Dec/14/12 and I'm feeling great with everything. I have been having great moments such as passing my classes and working hard to go to a good highschool. Getting ready for a wonderful christmas since this will be the first year My family and I will have christmas without him which means this christmas will be the best one ever! So that's my story and now i shall continue my life and live the future and forget the past...
