I'm hopeless, a hopeless romantic.
So what does it mean to be one? It can be the absolute worse and the absolute best. You're watching a movie or read a book and you get all tingly inside. Your heart beating faster. The corners of your mouth curve up. Butterflies in your stomach and feeling satisfied. Get this strange sensation in my hand.
Falling in love with characters so badly you want to be with them. You research them, just to hear their voices. Just to see their expressions. Just to feel special. It's the way they talk. The way they smile. Their goofiness and weirdness. How they are different and how they treat others.
I could watch them and read them all over again. Passion and chemistry so good, you can feel them. Drowning in their thoughts and fall in love with them.
They are picture-perfect, but is it? Is it perfect? Yes and that's the problem. You crave for it, you aim for it. All you want at those moments is to be there. To feel the chemistry they are feeling. To feel the passion they are feeling. Like you're the only one. Like you're the special one.
But it's all just a fantasy. It's not real and it never will be real. That unconditional love doesn't exist. Still, you want it. You dream about it. You think about it daily. All you want is to feel that passion in real life.
That you get goosebumps when someone touches you. That you want to kiss someone so badly that every kiss feels like an electrical shock. All you can do is dream about it, smile about it, and fantasize about it. Just remember to not get disappointed and live your life in reality.
Sometimes I forget, I love my boyfriend and he's my best friend. He does so much for me and I also love it when we kiss and want to see him as much as possible. But still, there's something about romance in movies and books that is out of this world, and sometimes it takes over and I get really high expectations in our relationship. Things that don't exist but I really crave for. That's what I hate about being a hopeless romantic. But at least I can fall in love all over again, and again, and again.
