My Destiny (on hold★)

Chapter 13: Call

Angela

"Bea!" Sigaw ko nang makita si Asela na nagsisketch sa sala. She's a mess. Magulo ang buhok at mugto ang mata sa kakaiyak.

"Oh, andyan ka na pala!" Ngiti niya sakin tapos nagpatuloy sa pagsisketch.

Not the usual girl I've known. May problema siya.

"Okay ka lang ba? Gusto mo bang pag-usapan natin yang problema mo?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

Biglang may mga pumatak na luha sa papel. Ibig sabihin nun, may problema nga siya. She's not really that good in hiding her problems. I know her too well. Patuloy na bumuhos ang mga luha niya habang ako naman hinahagod ang likod niya, trying to make her calm.

"Tell me, what's the problem?" I asked even though I know the reason why.

"Ano ba kasi yung mali sakin? May nagawa ba ko sa kanya? Marami ba kong nagawang mali para di niya ko mahalin ulit? Masama bang mahalin siya ng paulit-ulit? Ano ba kasi yung kasalanan ko? Okay naman na ako dati, ah? Bago pa siya bumalik ulit sa buhay ko bilang bestfriend niya." Saad niya habang ako tahimik lang.

"I moved on. I tried to mingle with other guys. I tried to be back with my old self. Pero bakit ganon? Nung bumalik siya sa buhay ko, parang lahat ng pagbubuo ko ng sarili ko nawala lahat. Ang masaklap pa dun, hindi kami. Bestfriend niya lang ako." Dagdag niya pa.

Tahimik lang ako sa pakikinig sa sinasabi niya. Gusto kong sabihin niya lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman niya. Yun lang ang alam kong magagawa ko para sa kanya.

"Tanga ba ko? Ganon ba ko kadaling utuin?" Tanong niya sakin.

"Bakit mo natanong yan? Of course not." I answered.

"Kung sasabihin ko bang may nangyari samin, will it change your mind? Will it change your answer?"

Hindi na ko nagulat sa tanong nya.

"I actually don't know why you both did that. Since di naman kayo. Di ko rin alam kung ilang beses, but of course may idea na ko sa ginagawa niyo. It's just, I know you're mature enough to handle these kind of things kaya hinayaan kita. Alam ko kasing diyan ka masaya." sagot ko.

"It doesn't still change the fact that I'm stupid. Stupid of giving up everything. binigay ko yun kahit hindi na kami. Tapos alam ko rin na may gf siya. Nagkikita pa rin kami kahit may gf na siya. Dati ako pa yung legal eh. Ngayon ako pa ang nagmumukhang other woman, mukhang ako pa ang nagmumukhang mang-aagaw." Umiyak siya ulit pagkakasabi niya nun.

Inalo ko siya habang umiiyak. I know she's still in love with him. Kita naman sa kanya na mahal niya pa rin. Its not just about pure lust. Its about giving up everything for the sake of the one you love but will never love you back unlike before. Yun ang masakit na katotohanan on her part.

I remained silent while she's crying on my shoulders.

"What do you want to do now?" I asked her while I'm trying to calm her down.

"I dont know. Bahala na." She said it again.

"You can't leave him?" I asked her.

"No. He's my bestfriend. I don't have to leave him because of my feelings for him." Just to clear the questions on your mind, I am also the bestfriend; girl bestfriend, and that guy is the guy bestfriend.

"From the day that you both had feelings for each other and became officially together, was the time that your friendship was over. Were you aware of that?"

She looked at me as if I've got a revelation. That was the truth, right? Kahit gaano pa ninyo pinahahalagahan ang friendship na iyon, once love takes over the bond you shared will be ruined by that love. It will never be the same kind of bond, it wil create another gap. Being with someone that broke you will only break you apart. Being with him will shatter you a little more because you were hoping that he would love you like he used to, that will never happen even. Kaya once na nagmahalan kayo more than bestfriends, you should know that the friendship will break apart when your love halts.

"That's why don't tell me to believe on that reason. I am your bestfriend. I know you and your way of thinking. If the reason was he deflowered you and you can't leave him behind, then that's bullsht!" I added.

"Do you even think that maybe he's only taking your emotions for granted? For you to be able to give him what he wanted? Did you ever thought that?" I asked her. I know I shouldn't be angry at her. She's the victim. But the fact that she's beginning to be a martyr in a stupid kind of way is too much. And as a bestfriend, I won't tolerate it. I can't see my bestfriend be miserable about someone who doesn't even knows her worth. Masaktan ko man siya, its better because I know in the near future, my bestfriend would come running to me, crying, like what she's doing now. And I can't bear to see her hurting this way, after all, she's like a sister to me.

She remained silent but she's wiping her tears away.

"I've been there for you when both of you broke up. I've seen you at your worst. I've seen you cry a million times because of him. But I never tried to stop you from doing everything that makes you happy. Bea, I am your bestfriend. I wanted you to be happy. I wanted my sister to be happy. I don't want you to cry like this just because of him." I explained. She needs to realize her worth, her worth that she never realized when they met. And sadly, she didn't until now.

"You deserve someone better. Better than him." I said.

She's looking at me. I dont know if she's angry or what.

"Sinasabi mo bang iwasan ko siya?" She asked me.

"Would you dare?" I asked back. Because I know.

"I wouldn't."

See?

I sighed. "You know, I can't dictate you with your decisions. Ikaw nagdedesisyon ng buhay mo. I can only advice you but since you're stubborn enough, let's just see what will happen. After all, I'm always be here for you."

As a cue, she hugged me immediately.

"Thank you."

"No need to thank me. I'm trying my best to be a good friend." I laughed.

"But seriously, know your worth." Dagdag ko habang tinatapik ang likuran niya.

Kumalas na siya at tumayo na ako para makaligo.

"How's tito and tita?" She asked while I'm heading to my room.

Napatigil ako nung nagtanong siya. I remembered that guy again. Ugh.

"They're fine."

"Oh. Something happened?"

I looked at her and frowned, "No. They're actually fine!"

Nagulat ako ng biglang nagring ang phone ko.

Unknown number? Who the hell is this person calling?

Hindi ko sinagot at first pero tumawag ito ulit. Marahas kong tiningnan ang phone ko habang nakapameywang na si Bea sa harap ko.

"Hey! Sagutin mo kaya yan?"

Huminga akong malalim and then sinagot ang tawag.

"Hello? Good day, this is me Angela speaking, how may I help you?" Sabi ko pagkasagot na pagkasagot ko. Ugh. Baka kasi isa sa mga writers namin.

"Hi, Angel! I just called to make sure you're safe." Unconciously, I rolled my eyes.

Kirby.

"Pano mo na naman nakuha number ko?" Pagsusungit ko. This guy is annoying!

"Calling card, remember? By the way, nasa bahay ka na?" Tanong niya.

"Halata naman diba? I have to go. I'm with Bea. Ciao!" Mabilis kong pinatay ang phone para hindi ko na marinig pa ang boses niyang kinaaasar ko. Sumalubong sa akin ang pang-asar na mukha ni Bea na para bang hindi nanggaling sa pag-iyak. Her nose is still red because of crying, and so is her eyes. I looked heavenwards. Oh gee, stop!

"Kirby?" Tanong niya sakin.

"Ghad. I can't believe youre listening." I rolled my eyes again.

She laughed, "So kaya ka mukhang defensive kanina eh kasi baka nakasama mo siya sa bahay nila tita?" Natigilan ako. Damn, bull's eye.

I groaned.

"I have to take a bath." I said to excuse myself from her at pumasok na agad sa cr.