in the corner

chapter one

I mean am I not beautiful enough or am I missing something? Why am I always an outcast to everyone, I mean I try.... I tried looking like a hoe just get anyone look my way but no one did, I tried everything In my life but nada nothing's changed, now I'm in my room crying because my grandma abuses me emotionally, actually everyone does that, but it hurts knowing that even your own family makes you an outcast just because you are different, I mean I am fat, but not that fat, i don't really understand why..... But at least I'm alive, but I still don't understand why.... I wish I was to live on my own but I care too much, even if they hurt me emotionally I don't hurt them, it's a sick move to commit suicide, I've never thought of that.... Sometimes I don't sleep but I cry think it might end, but no it's just the beginning of it, being an outcast made me believe that anyone can make you feel like you were born to die you don't deserve to live in a world full of beautiful people just to ruin their picture..... Sometimes I wish I was never born but guess what.... I'm here being Bei well that's my name