Mistakes that will never be forgiven (Ziall)

Why must we fight everytime?

Aren't you getting tired of this? 

Does it make sense at all?

Can we just forget about it and enjoy the rest of the day? 

Why are you so competitive between us?

Sometimes i just don't know anymore? 

Can we not?

Don't speak bullshit.

Am I patient enough?

It's another round of fighting for the two lovers, for them it's almost like a routine on fighting it's like they're day wouldn't be complete without having one. 

"hey, stop! i'm not done talking to you!" Zayn grabbed Niall's wrist gently as the Irish lad cried not looking towards his direction. "I'm sorry okay, I just - don't want you to get into something addictive like smoking. Like you know what it had done to me right? Please don't get mad" Zayn apologized face towards the floor"

"I know what y- you m-mean Zayn, I know it's bad for my health. I mean i was just trying it. I didn;t even want to finish a whole drag. I mean i've like told you a gazillion times "Zayn stop smoking babe, I love you too much" How am I stupid to do it if I know something bad will happen. I just want experience, okay?"

"Okay, I understand." Zayn said gently "S-s-sorry" zayn said as he gripped Niall's wrist and reached for his pale skin and kissing his cheeks. Zayn wasn't the apology type of guy. He despises saying sorry. maybe because of pride. 

"It's fine, let's just go to bed babe. i'm tired of all this bullshit" Niall groaned to the bradford boy kissing him back on the lips 

The Next Day

"Niall!!!!!!" Zayn shouted furiously through the whole house 

"WHY! Zayn! what happened?!!" Niall said as he reached where Zayn is

"Oh, seriously Niall you're asking me that? it's like you don't know." Zayn grudged an eyebrow 

"Know what" Niall asking questionably

"THIS!, you don't know this document huh?!" Zayn held a brown long envelope infront of his lover

"What i don't kno- wait is that the-" Niall mumbled as he recognized the envelope

"Oh it is Niall, it's the scholarship paper work to Harvard University. Yeah the one I really worked hard for all summer last year." Zayn said furiously to Niall but not shouting

You see before you get your scholarship to Harvard you have to pass a paper work and it will have a final decision if you will really get the scholarship. And if you didn't receive a reply back or an email it means that you didn't pass the qualifications. 

"Yeah" Niall remembered what he had done and looked down facing the floor gripping his boxer shorts holding back tears. Niall knew it was a bad thing. What he did caused Zayn depression. Zayn was really confident for his project and he would get the scholarship but, well you know. Niall was too selfish.

It took Zayn months to finish the documentary almost the whole summer he worked really hard for it. Staying up late at night just to finish a part of it, Drinking lots of caffeine (well which is not too healthy for your body), sacrificed spending time with families and friends and well Niall specifically, Cancelling all the parties and outings he's invited, and well forgetting the existence of his boyfriend aka Niall James Horan.

"Wtf Niall, I really worked hard for this" Zayn said pointing at the brown envelope "I've spent my whole last years summer just to finish this fucking documentary" Zayn said having watery eyes for the moment "This is really important Niall how could you just throw a one opportunity that i've really worked hard for all these years, it's just shit that I don't get to live up my dream and be an English teacher. Niall, you know that right? I really wanted to be a teacher. i've been telling you that since freshman year. Or did you just think of yourself instead and be selfish" Zayn said now tears streaming down his face