Girl With Fake Smile

Chapter 9

I reach home still not able stop thinking about how will my brother and two sisters treat me today. I wish them to leave to their place as soon as possible. I enter through door. They didn't give me any weird looks when I enter house. I leave to my room without looking at them.

Sitting on my bed, I wonder why don't they give me any looks full of hatred towards me? Didn't they saw me entering? Or are they planning to do something with me inside my room? I was terrified by their sudden change.

I almost jump shivering when I heard knock on my door. My heart starts beating at faster pace. I'm not sure whether I should open or not, but still I'm not sure who that would be. Thinking about abusing again if I didn't open the door, I slowly open it. It's mom and I sight in relief.

"Someone is there at door waiting for you. He said, he has some discussion to be done with you about study," she said with smiling as always.

" Tell him to wait a minute. I will be there soon" I said with closing door to change myself.

I wear a white t- shirt with red jacket and a mathra half Kira. I brush my hair making it into bun. I hate wearing makeup, so I apply sunscream and head outside to see who is there to have discussion with me.

When I'm on my way out, I didn't saw any of my sisters and brother. I wave goodbye to my mother who was sitting on sofa drinking mango juice.

"Come back before it's too dark" she said.

I nod at her and exit through door.

I saw someone standing at a distant with his back on my side. As I approach near, it was Namgay.

I ask, " what is that u want to discuss with me?"

He said, " umm..ahh..yeah, hah...about the day I confess my feelings towards you. I'm really sorry, if your not ready I am willing to wait till u feel same for me as I do to you. I'm really sorry again Samten. Please let's be friend like before."

When I look into his eyes, I can see each and every words he spoke were sincere. My heart melts with his words and I made my mind to forgive him. Everyone need a second chance.

" If u really mean it, I will forgive you" I said with liltle smile.

" I'm really happy that you forgive me. I really mean every words. Let's go for a walk" he says smiling.

We decide to go for a short walk. We walk along the road side. It was a nice moment I can say I had been with someone in my life other than my mom.

We talk about some possibilities of questions that will appear in exam. We do some questions and answers that seems important.

I laugh sincerely at some jokes he make. I was enjoying every moment that I spend with him. We reach at nearby children park where children's were playing. Some were running chasing each other while some were playing with the flowers around.

I was lost in thoughts seeing such a small children enjoying their childhood untill I feel my tears running down through my chick.

I don't remember any of my childhood memories which I cherish like them. All I could remember was myself being lock up in my room whole day playing myself.

It's not that my mom didn't let me but, whenever I play with my friends all would hate me as they do now. I thought they all would change at how they treat me as they were small but I was wrong. They are even same now.

Sometimes, Karma, Dechen, Sonam and Pema would treat me like their servant. I didn't mind them thinking that they are still small to feel others emotions unlike me but I was wrong this time too. They are still same.

I can feel more tears falling down thinking about how I my they treat me. I wipe away my tears without notice of Namgay. Thank god, he is still busy enjoying how children play at park.

" Let move back" I said patting on his shoulder.

He look at me nodding with smile .

We walk back at home talking about some of our favourite things. When we are halfway, Dorji and his friend, Karma is walking towards us. I smile to both of them but my smile drop when Dorji look at me with hatred.

I don't know why he hate me so much now. I feel sad about that but I can see through his eyes that he had feeling of anger as well as love behind his weird act. I stared at him in confusion for a while. Karma return me a smile.

Smile and joy that I had whole day in my heart were no longer now. Only I think were why Dorji is acting in such way? Before, he would gaze at me with smile and love, but now that feeling were gone. I was bit sad about that but still I fake my smile while I'm with Namgay because I don't want him to know about how I feel for Tshewang.

He walk me home. When I reach home I thanks him for his company where I enjoy every moment. He nod again with smile and he went to his home by waving me goodbye. I return his wave with smile.

I enter into house shouting I'm home so that my mom can hear who is in kitchen. I change my dress into blue half pant and black sweater. I even put on my brown over jacket to warm myself. I made my way into kitchen and join my mom to help her prepare dinner.

" Where did you went? Who was that boy?" She ask me with rolling her eyes.

" Mom, don't act stupid, we were just friend. You know about my crush. So don't expect us, okie?" I said hitting on her shoulder.

" Yeah I know that. I was just kidding. But, never forget that your body is your worst enemy before you are married" she said last part with more serious.

I said, "don't worry mom, you know me better than anyone."

Meanwhile I heard the sound of door opening. I assume that maybe my sisters and brother were back from somewhere.

" Where did they went ?" I ask lowering my voice so that they won't be able to hear.

" They said they have work. I don't know exact location" she said not looking at me.

I just nod at her answer but remembering that she isn't looking at me, I said I see. After done with preparing, we sit to have dinner. I sit besides my mom. The other three sit opposite to us facing us.

While we were eating, mom ask about how things are going?

"I think, it went well" my eldest sister speak.

I thought in confusion, is there something going on. I want to ask but I can't. They may say for sure that it's not my business. So I didn't spoke a single words.

I'm happy that they are no longer treating me like the fist time they treat me. I went into my room after done with cleaning kitchen. We hardly had two weeks to start exam.

Thinking about exam makes me to shiver in panic. Without wasting time I jump on my bed to study. I open my biology text book and start studying about cellular organism. Holding pencil I start to underline important parts.

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