Love

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by Jswervooo

by Jswervooo

I'm Lauren , mother , daughter , ride or die . I'm not the little 18 year old spoiled brat anymore ... lol babe wouldn't agree with that last part , but I'm not , I mean I've grown so much ... took looses , won again , lost again , loved again , got my heart broke again . Everything is a cycle but everything truly does happen for a reason . Me and Hussle met unexpectedly ... it was our fate . I was just being me helping my bestfriend as usual , he was just being him supporting his as usual . It's crazy to me because it couldn't been any other man that day , but it was him . A Hood nigga , a drug dealer , a killer , but a good and honest man . Nipsey is so much more than what he shows so while some people asked why did I do seventeen months for this man , i say because he would've did more for me . Because he truly would've , our love is real . He is real . We are real . I'm not brain washed. I'm not blindly by love . I'm not even blinded by lust . I see things very clearly , it's cloudy right now , but he is my light . My son , my biggest blessing , my proudest achievement , my forever love . He was born in my revenge , to get back at my man but he came out the best revenge I could have ever have and honestly I would do it all over again ... I'm saying all of this to say that my life is an adventure . Now I will consider myself a mother of two , I have a plus child ... Emani I will do and treat her as my own , I'm excited to meet her when all of this is over , so we can truly all be at peace . Her mother and I probably will never truly be cool , but she will respect me as for Hussle is mines , her daughter will be my daughter , and my son will he raised as Hussles ..... Sadly , mines and his children can't be with us neither can my parents . They are in Dubai . I am nothing without my son , I am lost without my son but I love my son so much that I have to let him go so he can have a better chance at life ....

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Nipsey: Boog , I'm sorry you gotta go through this on Hood. I see you hurting right now , but it's gone get better . I just gotta I just gotta get them niggaz

Lauren : And then what Hussle ? We gone be good , raise our kids together , fight with your baby mama? Live off of what drug money?

Nipsey : To be honest Boog , yes .

Lauren : and that's meant to be my life for how long? Forever ?

Nipsey : On hood Lauren , you know what it was when you met me . Yes I love you but naw I can't make you stay with me , I told you leave go to Dubai let me handle this , did you do it? Did you want to go ? And even if you did you ain't speak up , what you afraid it ain't gone be nothing to come home to ? You scared I'm gone die ? Well I'm gone die with or without you so be prepared .

Lauren : WOW . just wow . You know what I'm gonna go.

Nipsey : Stop always walking out , that's all you do .
Matter fact fuck that leave .

Lauren : you want me to talk ? Let's talk about how you fucked my life up , I did jail time , got pregnant , find out you had a child and now I'm separated away from my family .... but leave right ?

Nipsey : that's what I don't get about bitches , y'all love street niggas and hood niggas till it's time to hold a brick ,Do some time , hold us down while we doing time , shid even know we fucking hoes but still fuck us when we come home at night . Ian ask you to do shit for me , you wanted this feeling you been craving this your whole life and you know it. But I'm gone on Hood.

Lauren : bitches ? Hoes ? When you get cut like that talking to me like that ? Respect me how I respect you . Don't ever get it twisted , Ian come from the drug dealing , killing Ass family , but you right ever since I met you I'm with allat . So don't fucking try me . I killed people , I sold drugs , I still sell them , I would like to get back normal go to school , college , that was my plan before I met you and I'm sorry I fell in love with you . It's not your fault , this was all my choice and honestly I'll do it all over again for love and the adventure .

Nipsey : Lauren , you had a baby on me .

Lauren : Nipsey , and I'm sorry . But you had a daughter and didn't tell me , what if I didn't want to be with a man who had kids ?

Nipsey : that's my fault , but as a man my number one priority and duty is to protect her . I had to make sure I could trust you first .

Lauren : trust me ? Coming when you got shot ? Doing jail time ? Holding bricks ? Killing people ? And you still didn't trust me , and i really don't think you trust me now cause I had a baby with another man. What are we doing?

Nipsey : you right I don't trust you , but I love you . I'm in love with you and can't see myself without you .

Lauren : and I love you more and I'm deeply in love with you , but after this I'm gonna need peace .

Nipsey : baby , yes you will have that .

Lauren : To get peace I'm going to need space . Away from you , the streets , guns , weed .. just everything .

Nipsey : Ight on Hood.

Lauren : it's not like that , I promise . I just i need to get better I gotta get better I have a son now , and a daughter ... I just gotta be better .

Nipsey : understood .

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