Paubaya

4:00 pm

I'm just walking in the side of the road, looking at the beautiful sunset,when I bump to someone

"I'm sorry"

I said

And  he look at me

I saw the sadness in his eyes, I wonder why

"I'm sorry" i said and walk away

But suddenly he walks with me

We were just walking when he suddenly talk

"Did you ever feel like your always at her side but he still choose the person who broke her?"

He ask me

I looked at him and show my sad smile

"Naka experience ako" i said

When we arrive at park, nag hanap kami ng bench para pag usapan yung experience naming dalawa

When We both seated at the bench he began to talk about his experience.

"We are best friends in college, were same section same course, and he always talks about his ex-boyfriend that she still loves him, she always wants the guy back and he wants to marry that guy. Then one day I ask her kung bakit nya gusto parin makasama yung taong yun. He just said to me and I always feel loved and safe when he's with me, is that enough reason to satisfy your question? Wala akong masabi sa sinabi nya sakin; syempre binago ko na yung topic. After how many months I started to fall in love with her I don't tell her what I feel, just show some motives that I like her. And I always care for her, support her, cheer for her, and I always stay by her side when he needs me, I stay even if I'm hurting."

Napa hinto sya saglit at tinuloy yung sinasabi nya

" Ako lagi yung nag push sa kanya na gawin mo na yan kasi alam kong masaya ka dyan, Ako lagi yung kasama, ako lagi kadamay nya, ako lagi yung nasa tabi nya. But why? Am I not enough? May kulang pa sakin? "

Tinignan ko sya saglit at nag salita

"Enough kana kaso hindi nya lang nakikita sayo kasi nga mahal nya parin yung ex nya, ganon lang yun eh. Pag nararamdaman nyang andyan kalang naman lagi mamimihasa yan sila kaya tignan mo nung binalikan nya yung ex nya kinalimutan ka bigla tas pag nag break ulit yan sila babalik yan sayo kasi alam nyang andyan kalang naman lagi para sa kanya"

He nod that's he agree to me

He smiled

A sad smile

"ikaw" he said

Tinignan ko sya saglit at binalik yung tingin sa sunset

"we have different kind of experiences in life, medyo pareho tayo. Uhm Can I ask you something?"

He just nod his head

Sign that he agree

"Naranasan mo na bang binigay mo lahat lahat kahit mawalan kana para sa sarili mo para mapangiti mo lang yung mahal mo?

"I have this friend that he show some motives that he liked me, I don't know kung ganon din ba sya sa iba or sadyang assuming lang ako. And I lost my friends because of him"

I paused

"5 or 8 months he started to court me then after how many months sinagot ko na sya, syempre masaya kami sa una ganon naman talaga diba sabi nila sa una lang daw talaga masaya. I lost my friends because of him why? Kasi pag may yayaan kami punta tayo dyan, overnight tayo dito. Hindi nya ko pinapayagan strict mas strict pa sa tatay ko. Boyfriend ko lang naman sya pero bakit ganon diba? Syempre ako tong si tanga sumusunod. After ng ilang yrs naming pag sasama biglang nag pa ramdam yung ex nya, yes ex kung baga past na. Sinabi nya sakin yun syempre at first nagulat ako tinanong ko kung bakit sabi nya nang hihingi daw ng closure yung babae. Umayaw ako kasi feeling ko may mali" i said