More than friends ? ( a graseberryjam fanficion)

The truth

Graser's pov

I logged on to Minecraft, waiting for the Cube server to load. I was a wreck I hadn't slept well in a while. I just need to talk to Straub. He was my best friend and I told him everything. Well, almost everything. I knew if I told him I was gay, he wouldn't accept me. When it finally did load, I saw that he was on. My heart stopped when he had message me.

Strauberryjam: Hey team speak? I really need talk to you ...
Straub was always there for me so, I thought it would be a good time to tell him. Grasermc : Sure. 😊

I unmuted my team speak and Straub moved us in to a private chat.
"Hey my boy g10!" He spoke with a loudly.
"Hey Straub." I spoke. Probably sounding terrible but I didn't care.
It was Straub he's seen me at my best and my worst. He started to mumble something. Suddenly, he muted. He then moved us back into a chat with :
Hbomb, Parker, Bee, Dolphin and Rusher.

I can't believe he moved us with out asking me and he said he wanted to talk me. Or maybe he just wanted to talk to someone. I couldn't come out to all these people. I felt so left out when everyone started talking at once. I muted and logged out, I couldn't stand to stay on. I started crying. I turned off my computer and went to lay in bed. I hated it how Bee lives with Straub.
"Why can't that be me!?"
Wait, did I just say that out loud? I rolled over to my side, wishing that he was with me.....He always made me feel better.

A little while later I got a text from Straub.
Straub 💕: Streaming can u join? My fans love you. 😊

I didn't even feel like playing. Plus, he didn't even ask if I was okay from before. But I decided that I had to, it was for Straub.
I got back up and logged on. I joined his team speak and yelled "Yo, yo, yo! It's your boy g10." I pulled up the chat so I could see what people were saying. I also pulled up Straub's stream.
"Hey Graser." I just giggled his voice was so cute. The chat started going crazy with people hashtagging '#graseberryjam'; that was mine and Straub's ship name. I then looked to see Straub's face cam, he was blushing. It then turned off all of a sudden. He said he couldn't stream anymore. He then logged off but he was still connected to team speak.
"Straub ?" I asked. I heard a muffled sob. I moved us in to a private chat just in case anyone joined the other one. I didn't know what to say or do.
"I'm s-s-sorry Graser... I just can't deal with people shipping us. I'm just so in love with Bee and you know..."
I started freaking out. He... He likes Bee? Wait, he loves her!? All I managed to say was: "You love Bee?"
What if he got mad at me? I started freaking out again. I tried to breath normally but it was hard. I started bawling my eyes out. I couldn't take hearing him say those words. He was my everything! I heard the sound of his voice but I couldn't hear what he was saying. Everything started going black. Eventually I blacked out. I opened my eyes, but didn't seem to find myself at my computer. I was at PAX East standing with Straub, I found myself leaning in to kiss him. I couldn't stop myself. I tried to pull back but I couldn't our lips connected and it felt so right but, just as I felt the fireworks I felt myself being pushed back. I opened my eyes and look up to see Straub. "EW GET AWAY FROM ME YA FAG!!"
My eyes shot open and I looked to see no one.
"It was just a dream..."