I woke up this morning shaking. I had a bad dream, the worst nightmare I have ever had. I don't even want to remember it so I get up from bed and go straight to the window.
It is a pretty day, a very hot day of summer in the great Kingdom of Spain. I let my nightgown slowly fall off of my body. I look at myself in the mirror; my breasts seems to be bigger every day, my waist is smaller because of my tight corset that I wear daily. I comb my long red hair and call for my ladies to help me get dressed. My ladies in waiting, my only friends, Juana and Luisa, they have been with me since I was 8 years old, a naughty Princess and now I am sixteen today.
-How did you sleep, Catalina?
-Not very well, I had a nightmare, it was horrible, I say as Juana and Luisa out the corset around my waist.
-Do you still have those nightmares? Juana askes me.
-The nightmares never left, I whisper as I sare at myself in the mirror.
The ladies get me dressed and fixed my curls, I took my white shoes and got out of my chambers. I was thinking to head to the garden for my morning walk but I decided I should go to my father. I'm in a hurry to get to my father as soon as possible until he goes hunting, I need to talk to him.
I find him on this throne, in his private chamber with my lady mother in his lap. They are not old, but still not young as they used to be. Father was touching my mother's red hair and she was laughing and kissing his cheek. I never understood that. I never understood love, but maybe because I never felt in love, maybe never will...
-Good morning father, mother! I wish them as I bow to show respect to the rulers of Spain.
-Oh my dear, happy birthday! My lady mother comes to me and kisses both of my cheeks.
-It's wonderful that you already came. We have wonderful news to tell you, dear daughter. You are my only heir, after I die... you will be Queen of Spain, the second Queen ruler of Spain, Catalina. You need a husband! And Prince Edward, from England is perfect for you, just two years older.
I hear nothing. I feel very dizzy and it's not because I didn't eat this morning, but because of the terrible news he gave me. They smile like it's very good I will be married to a boy, a man I never met.
-Father, I was thinking we could wait more. I don't need a husband just right now. I want to think of it more, I say almost whispering.
-You are never pleased! You should be grateful for the things I do to you! Edward is on his way to Spain, the engagement will be done! Oh...And try and look like you are very happy to see your future husband!
He gets up from his throne and left the room very angry. My lady mother followed him, she never tried to be a soft mother to me, she was always tough and heartless. I continue to look at the throne. This will be mine one day and I will do as I wish.
