Secrets (Sad Phan Fanfic with Troyler)

Chapter 1: Finding Out

It was a lovely day outside, and it was the day after Vidcon went on. Not very quiet though, as usual, but it was still glorious. So, Dan and Phil went for a little walk around the block near their hotel. "So nice out today," Phil said, and Dan nodded in agreement. "Definitely."

Going back to the hotel room, Dan began to notice something. Not change in the weather, not anything normal. Dan noticed that for a while now, Phil had been wearing really thick bracelets and long sleeved shirts. He even slept with long sleeve shirts on. Why though? He thought it might not be best to ask right now, and he would wait until they got back.

After a little longer, they finally reached their room. Dan closed the door behind them both, and after he did so, he grabbed Phil's arm before he began to walk away from the door. "What?" Phil asked, and Dan let go of his arm as Phil turned towards him. "Phil, I want to know why you've all of a sudden been wearing long sleeved shirts, even when you're sleeping, and thick bracelets. Show me," Dan said, and Phil shook his head. "Dan, I... I can't.." he replied, a look of worry on his face. "Please, Phil. I'm your best friend and so far we've told each other everything." Phil sighed, rolling up his sleeve. Already, Dan saw marks from his elbow area down his arm. Dan gasped, and Phil began to remove the bracelets, letting them drop to the floor. After Dan saw what Phil had done, he had tears in his eyes. Phil too had tears in his eyes. "Phil... why...?" Phil shook his head, a tear rolling down his cheek. Phil walked away from the door, and sat on the foot of the bed, more and more tears coming out. Same with Dan. He couldn't believe that Phil had self-harmed at all. All those scar marks... "But... we tell each other everything, Phil. Why didn't you ever tell me about this??" Dan asked, worried that Phil might try again, and there would be nothing Dan could do to help.

"Dan... I-I couldn't. I didn't know how and even if I did... you wouldn't have been able to help me.." Dan looked at him. "Yes I would've, Phil. I'm your friend and that's what friends are for. Hell, we're BEST friends." Phil smiled weakly. Dan sniffed. "But you still wouldn't have been able to, Dan. It was.. it was after the collab with Tyler. There was just so much going on that week and so many things on Twitter and stuff like that and... and... and I just couldn't take it... So, when you were gone, I grabbed the sharpest thing near me and...." he didn't need to finish because Dan knew exactly what Phil was talking about.