It was finally Saturday morning,in an hour or so I'd be with mi amore and I'd actually be happy. He knows everything about me and doesn't get pissed. This is why I love him.
I'm feeling better today than I did yesterday so that's good.I wish I didn't have to deal with people anymore.but I promised Stacey and Ian both I would stay somewhat living just for them.
My social life, well I don't actually have one. I write stories,read, and listen to music most of the time.I only talk to people if I have to.Nobody really cares,not even the teachers. I'm ok with this just because then I can actually get sleep.What I mean by this is, at home, I don't get sleep considering I don't completely like living alone and I have my horrid nightmares.
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Ian finally made it!!! I'm so happy, he's still as sexy as can be. I've even decided that he's sexier than Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance and that's something big. It was already Sunday and Ive realized just how fast time flys. Well both nights we just watched movies and relaxed. It was the perfect weekend ever. That's when I realized I had to deal with school tomorrow. Ian would never let me ditch, I know this. That night he kissed my forehead and I happily fell asleep in his arms
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MONDAY
I had gym first period. When I walked in,everyone was there but there was a new kid. He had gorgeous short blond hair, beautiful blue eyes and he was tall. I decided I had to ignore him for my safety. After I took my seat he came over to me and held out his hand "hiya I'm Jason,and you are?" I smiled and most likely blushed "I'm Amanda" and then I remembered, I couldn't be friends with this guy, he was popular and handsome and I was an outcast.
Plus I had a boyfriend. I couldn't be friends or anything with this gorgeous guy. I would have to stay being a loner
Jason sat beside me for gym and we had to have partners, he chose me. Avoiding him would be harder than I thought. Turns out, he had every fucking class with me. In every class, he'd start out sitting with me then move to where the jocks or cheerleaders sat. It was better this way. Besides why does he even want to be my friend? I have short dyed hair,I'm not tall but not short,and I only have a couple friends.Was he using me for something? Why would he use me?During class I always have my head down listening to music or sleeping,I don't know anything. If he wasn't using me then why did he want to be friends? Oh well, we couldn't be friends,that's all I knew.
In math, when the teacher had left the room Jason turned to me. "Why do you ignore me Amanda?". I looked up at him,then back down at my paper. I had to ignore him. I could do this. I thought. Until he lifted up my chin so I had to look at him and repeated the question but stopped midway. I saw him looking at my uncovered wrist. Shit. This is exactly what I didn't want. "Why?" this was his new question. He then lifted up my wrist to his lips and kissed each cut. "I can't....tell you....leave me alone" I couldn't believe I said this but it was best. He looked at me sadly but left me alone,after he gave me his cell phone number.
I texted him once and he seemed happy about it.This guy was a good actor.anyways it was finally time to leave this hell hole and go home to my boyfriend :)
