Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~15~ The stars

Troye's pov

What the hell am I doing? This day was going perfectly and then I suddenly wanted to tell him what I feel. Like really feel. I'm glad I didn't though. He's not even gay so why would I ever tell him? It would only make things awkward between us. But out of all the things I could've told him I said something stupid about him being my best friend with emphasizing friend. Way to make it obvious Troye. And if all of that isn't even enough, no, suddenly Connor looks like he's going to cry and throw up or something. He wasn't sick right before I said that stupid best friends thing. He definitely knows how I feel about him and doesn't know how to respond. Or after all he maybe just got sick, who knows? I hope the latter even though I don't want him to be sick but it's better than him knowing about my feelings.

"You don't look alright, do you want to go home?"

"No it's fine, I want to stay here. Actually would you mind to watch the sunset here with me?" I didn't expect him to say this. Not that I don't want it though, it's probably even a cuddle situation. Oh god I really need to stop thinking like that but to be honest he never seemed to mind our cuddles. Hell he even had me in his arms this night. Why am I so scared about him finding out I like him, if he didn't notice it by now, he probably never will.

"Of course I don't mind, I really like the idea of it." A smile grew on his face and I was so relieved to see it. He suddenly looked way happier and less sick. Maybe I did imagine all of it.

"We didn't take pictures together, we should take some." I was not going to argue with him.

"Just say what and where." I was used to Connor telling me where I should stand or sit and in what direction I should look and stuff. He's an amazing photographer and I always love his pictures. I didn't mind it at all to take some together. That's going to be a beautiful thing to remember this day. I love the way that you look at pictures and suddenly all the memories come floating back. I think you should capture all the good things in life.

After a lot of pictures we took together it began to get dark.  We wanted to see the sunset so we went to the highest place so we had the best view. I took the blankets out of Connor's car and laid one down on the ground so we could sit on it. The other one was on top of us. At first we were just sitting and talking until Connor suddenly moved closer and laid down on his back. I watched him in his movements, looking down to him. The urge to kiss him when he was this close was so big. The way his lips moved so perfectly, showing a tiny bit of his perfect teeth with every movement. His eyes sparkling in the bit of sunlight that was still left.

"Troye did you listen at all?" Fuck. I didn't hear a thing of what he just said. I was so mesmerized by his face that I zoned out completely. From the look on my face he already knew I didn't listen.

"Sorry Connor, I was lost in my thoughts."

"I know the feeling all to well. So what I said was that the colors of the sky are beautiful and that I wouldn't want to be here with someone else but you." I felt a smile spread across my face. I didn't try to hold it back, Connor may know that he makes me happy. I think that the thing he originaly said was longer than what he just said but it still made me really happy. Even small things like this mean the world to me.

"I don't want to either." With that said we kept silent. Just watching the beautiful sunset. I laid down next to Connor. Our bodies inches apart, hands accidentally brushing against each other with every minimal movement. We were perfectly fine just laying here and enjoying every little thing. The wonderful colors of the sky taking place for the night blue color and the sparkling stars. I never knew that the sky could be so beautiful.

"It's weird that so many other people are watching the same stars as we now." Connor spoke up, his voice low.

"And then knowing that most of these stars don't even exist any more. That they stopped shining a long time ago and we only see them now. We see them even though they don't exist anymore. The world is such a weird but wonderful place." I couldn't get enough of Connor telling me this. He seemed so passionate about it. The way he told it was just a reason more why he's so perfect.