The night was cool and the moon full, voices of merriment can be heard from the mad crowd dancing wildly on the dance floor, jeers and laughter can be heard, bodies were swaying to the beat of the music, for short it was a FUN NIGHT for all of us but, it didn’t end well for me.
I was dancing merrily together with my friends when I felt an urgency to pee, so I excused myself from the group and went to the nearest comfort room. After using it, I was slowly walking back to the dance floor when I saw a very familiar figure, I couldn’t be mistaken when it comes to recognizing familiar people in the dark, yes, it was him indeed, the man I reserved my heart for, the man that makes my heart do ventricular contractions, the man that takes my breath away, for short he was the man I love, I was happy to see him around I even put enough make-up on my face just to look extra prettier that night because I had a feeling he is going to be around, but my world stop spinning when I saw him with another girl, you could look at them and instantly call them a couple. All the joy in my heart melted away and excruciating pain overtook my whole being, I couldn’t afford seeing him with another girl, yes, I know, I don’t have the right to be jealous because he is not mine, but what about the moments we’ve shared together? What about the sweet gestures and sweet talks he has given to me? Doesn’t that count? Was he just playing around with me just for the sake of keeping his boredom away? Was he just leaving me with empty promises to break my heart? Why? I sure hope I know the answer.
I still remember that night when he hugged me because I didn’t talk to him, I still remember when he sang me a love song and told me to look him in the eye. I remember the time when he explained the meaning of his jersey number. I still remember the times he would smile and wave at me just to get my attention, I remember the messages he sends me even if he has no cellphone and to text me would mean he needs to borrow one, the calls I received in the wee hours of the morning, the laughter we shared on some stupid joke. I still remember the date of the first time I saw him and I remember the time that I fell head over heels in love with him, I thought it was the start of something new, I was excited that those things will flourish and became the fairy tale love story I was waiting for eighteen long years but I guess the fairy-tale love story I was waiting for has already ended before it got started.
Maybe I was assuming, I expected too much from him and from his actions, his empty promises, according to Newton’s third Law of Motion, “every interaction has an equal and opposite reaction” so you could never start loving somebody when that somebody had not given you any motives for you to love him.
I have been waiting for him for 1 year, 1 month, and 4 days now, but I guess I don’t have anything to wait for anymore, I QUIT, I LET YOU GO,I SURRENDER, I GIVE UP on us and so I stop reminiscing the past and started my way home on that long, lonely night with the things left for me, a broken heart to mend and a permanent scar etched on my heart.
“everything i know about love, i learn from you and
everything i know about pain, i learn from you. so thank you for the broken heart” T.t
The.unicorn.huntress SIGNING OUT : 11:50 P.M., 7/4/2012
