Alice Always

Beginning

        I didn't honestly know what I was doing. I knew what I wanted to do. But not how to do it.

         'Stupid girl just do it! You're wasting my time!' That stupid voice was back. It always got what it wanted. No matter what it was...

        The needle pierced my skin easily. Not a prick. I closed my eyes and injected the liquid into my blood stream. This was going to save me a lot of hurt in a bit. I hope.

        'That's a good girl. Now finish the job. You know this is the only way you can get what you want.' the voice said in a succulent tone. He was right though. It was what I wanted.

        I leaned over and grabbed the silver gun off my bed. "This is what I want," I whispered to myself. It was true. But that doesn't mean it scares my any less. Closing my eyes I leaned back on my bed and put the gun to my stomach, right where my uterus was. "This is what I want," I said one more time and pulled the trigger.

        BOOM!!! The sound of the gun ran all over the house. It only took moments before Sebastian was there. I smiled to myself knowing I had succeeded in my mission and stood up. Still no pain.

        "WHAT THE HELL?!?!" Sebastian yelled, "WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?! WHY THE-" he stopped mid sentence and grabbed me. "911? Yes I need an ambulance or a pass for speeding. My sister has been shot. Yes. Thank you." He said into the phone and carried me down the stairs.

        I didn't realize just how much blood I had lost until I was sitting in all of it in the car. I started dozing off as I saw all the street lights flash by. They looked lovely. 'Yes they do. Now don't you feel better than before?' the voiced asked. I started giggling uncontrollably and agreed with the voice. I felt more than just better. I felt amazing! My laughing got louder and I smiled.

        "Emergency surgery!" I heard a voice yell. "Now she's lost too much blood as is," the voice said again. There was a bunch of beeping and yelling and talking and it was all just too much. I wanted it all to stop.

        'I know you do, so why don't you do something about it?' a small voice whispered. I should. That would be good. I went to lift my arm but nothing moved. This was odd. I tried to open my eyes but that didn't work either. Nothing was doing what I wanted. This wasn't okay!!!

        The beeping got louder and a bunch of people started yelling at each other again pissing me off more.

        I sighed to myself feeling like I had just gone through hell and rolled over in my bed.

        "Oh no you don't," I heard a voice. I opened my eyes quickly and saw a lady in all white looking at me with a nervous expression.  "Good morning," she said cheerfully whipping the look off her face. "I'm Nancy, I'll be your nurse while you're with us. Is there anything i can get you?" she walked towards me. Her hair was long and blond she was pretty short though. I lifted my hand to my head and sighed.

        'You did go through hell remember?' I heard him again. 'It was fun too, you looked so happy when you finally got what you wanted.' I gasped at his words and my hands flew to my stomach. There was bandaging all around my torso. It was red soaked through with blood.

        "No," I whispered. "No no no no no no no no no no," I repeated to myself and went to sit up but was only granted an enormous amount of pain. "NO!" I screamed. "How could you do this to me?!" I screamed out loud forgetting where I was.

        'How could I do what to you' the voice asked. 'I did nothing, you're the one who did it all. I only encouraged.' He snickered and sighed going quiet.