Mental health

Depression

Depression is feeling you don't catch until you are under a bus in the ocean with no way to get out. It isn't something that you notice when you first put your feet into the ocean ,you don't know till the moment where you don't feel like going to school but you can't miss it because you've already missed too many days. You don't notice until the moment where you lock yourself in a room where you are alone or where you notice you start to like the pain. Then it goes to the moment where you have to tell your parents "Mom dad I think I should tell you something. I have this feeling where I feel like I'm going under. No scratch that it's like I'm in this ocean with my legs paralyzed no way to get out of this river pushing me to this waterfall. Mom dad I'm scared of going to that waterfall because if I go down that waterfall I don't know if I could get up." I knew my parents but it was time to tell my little brother. The one I would step in front of a bullet for how I feel on a daily basis. Should I tell him that I feel like I'm drowning or should I tell him that I don't feel like getting. I even told him yet he is too innocent. I already have anxiety. I don't know how to get out of this.