As we fall

Anger managment

Mia's POV

I just stand there in bliss at his words, goosebumps fill my skin and I feel the muscles near my lower abdomen aching for him,,  he's completely right.. I am dying to kiss his perfect lips right now..

Well I want to explain my side to our argument before we jump back into a relationship Hayden so please keep your flirty remarks and thoughts to yourself until I get shit off my chest. I say sternly.

Okay.  Explain then. Why don't you start with the fact of you not wanting to lose your virginity to me, he says with glaring puppy sad eyes.

I do.. of course I want you to take it Hayden I'm in love with you,,    But I really didn't want our first time making love to be under my fathers roof.. it's really not romantic and call me crazy but I want romantic, I waited a long time and I just want it to be special and memorable. Definitely not rushed by your anger and fear of my dad giving me away to another man... I explain.

Oh.. that thought didn't even cross my mind, I always let my head go to the worst possible scenarios.. he says as if he had just hit realization.

What was the scenario you thought of that made you so mad that you'd cheat on me?... I ask in a weak whisper.    It's quite for a moment as he study's my question before finally moving his lips to talk,,,

Honestly I thought of our relationship a lot and hated the fact that we didn't do things and hang out as normal couples would do and it was starting to agitate me that I had to be a secret... I already felt like I was temporary,  and when you told me about the "asking" bullshit I just couldn't control my anger anymore, I felt as though I'm so in love with you and you still consider me just a fling, something fun to do behind your stricked ass fathers back, and when you denied me your virginity that feeling got extremely stronger...  I felt.. well I still kinda feel,   Like you don't really see a future of me becoming your husband because I'm not a Gypsy,, and that your saving yourself for someone else.
He explained with pure honesty. Like seriously he didn't even bother to sugar coat.

Hayden I think about you being my husband a lot actually,, don't freak out I know it's crazy we barely know each other less then 2 months.. but I'm a Gypsy.. most Gypsy girls are married with their first kid by the time their 16, I'm maybe a little more advanced then the girls your use to. I was raised knowing I'm gonna get married young and be a mother and that's a normal thing for me... i fantasize about what kind of husband and father you would be all the time.   But I'd lie if I told you I'm not terribly scared of it,  if my father knew about me with an American I really don't know how far he'd go to punish me for it but I know he will stop at nothing to end us.. I don't risk hanging out with you cause if any other Gypsy sees us together, words will get around to basically every Gypsy in the world and I will be frowned upon bringing shame to my family... I say to him as tears rush down my cheek.

You need to stop worrying about what people think and do what makes you happy Mia.

I stride towards him and throw my arms around his neck in a swift motion, with the space I just cleared between us our bodies are now touching as his eyes gaze into mine,,    "YOUR what makes me happy". I whisper and finish by pressing my lips to his.
He moves his blood dripping knuckles to my hips as my actions and words excite him but I quickly end the kiss backing up,,, babe your gonna get your blood on my outfit! I say with droopy eyes.. let's go clean you up! And I drag him to the nearest bathroom.

After cleaning up the blood off his hands we walk out of the bathroom into the loud music and crowd of people.
Baby I'm so hungry can we get out of here? I ask loudly over the music.

Fuck yeah! I was hoping you'd leave with me. He assures taking my hand to walk me out.

We walked passed Sam and molly and I yell to them that I'm leaving as they make funny faces at me because of the fact that I'm leaving with Hayden.. the boy we talked shit about yesterday, I laugh at the thought.