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[ YEAR < June 12, 2013 > ]

⎯⎯ ୨KALA'S ୧ ⎯⎯

Today is D-day of the debut of my brother with his group named BTS from Bighit Entertainment. They will be releasing the MV today and tomorrow will be their debut stage performance in M countdown. Earlier this morning, Jiminie oppa called and ask if we are going to see their debut performance tomorrow since my parents, jihyun oppa and I are currently in Seoul for my National Gymnastics Meet and Figure skating competition. Me being me, I lied. I told minie oppa that I can't come because I have other dance schedule tomorrow. I told him that only Jihyun oppa and Mom will come while dad, my manager and I will go to the "dance schedule".

It's not a full lie though because I do have a special dance performance few hours before the schedule of my brother's performance. Although, I will still come and support my brother on a very special day for them. I just can't miss it and I will not let the opportunity to see him fulfill his dreams go by just like that. So tomorrow , we as a family will go and watch my brother's group perform their debut song. Not gonna lie, I'm very nervous about their debut-considering how judgmental people are especially the media these days. If they don't like something, they will express it and rub it to your face, not caring about your feelings and well-being.

I remember before, whenever I receive hate and hurtful comments from others—may it be in person or in the internet, it affects and hurts me a lot. I would cry and ask my mom questions that I am aware hurts her too. No parents would like to see their child cry or be hurt. Not wanting to worry anyone in my family, I started to practice not caring about what others says and focus on what I think of myself and how I see myself. I was able to meet my brother 2 months ago and gave him the heads up about what to expect when they debut and to start building the courage and strong will because without it, the path that the group will take after debut will be much more harder than it will already be. With that being said, I just finished doing some of the school works that I have to do and am now waiting for their debut mv to be released.

When the time where the MV was released, we are fixated on the screen and watch it with seriousness and admiration. All I can say is wow. I did not expect their debut concept would be this strong and hiphop-sy. It kind of reminds me of Big Bang and Beast however, it is clear that the group ( BTS ) have a different path than the two groups that I have said. After watching the mv , my parents went outside to buy dinner for us while Jihyun oppa went to go and take a bath. We're currently staying at a hotel and we got 2 rooms with connecting doors. My parents got the room with King sized bed while me and brother got the room with Queen sized bed. It's not like I'm complaining though. I can't sleep without a stuff toy or a person to cuddle and having insomnia with that does not make sleeping at night easy at all.