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reasons // tw ⚠️

tw// mention/implication or suicide
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today i did it, I woke and up found my reasons.

so today i wanna say cheers to finding new reasons, people hobbies, loves any stupid reason is so much more than you might think

cause finding those is hard, almost beyond impossible cause when you feel like you would be better off.

when you feel so so dark and twisted and destroyed inside when it feels like your soul that was once blossoming with flowers so all shapes sizes and colors has converted to dry barine wasteland and all you want is to set it on fire and be done with it all those reasons you had before exist you mind with and express tickets someone where far far away

and soon you find yourself letter in hand ready to do it and i know a poem on a app isn't going to tell you shit but it can maybe hold back the flood gates for just a second longer, long enough for you to through aside you lighter

so please for yourself find one reason, it doesn't have to be big,

maybe it's that stupid corny meme your friend sent you that might have been the first thing you laughed at in weeks.

that's a reason

that one conversation with someone you just can't seem to shake from your memory

that's a reason

the meal you made today for your friends, family or just yourself

that's a reason

taking a shower or brushing your teeth

that's a reason

just being alive today and trying the very best that you could today

that's a reason

reaching out and getting the help you deserve

that's a reason

for being being you, your beautiful, funny, kind, caring, amazing authentic self

guess what

that's one more reason

so live for your future kids, for your wedding cake, for your career, for lives happy moments, for that trip you wanna take,
for the instrument you wanna learn, for finishing the book,
for writing your novel,
for trying that food,
for finding love where it never was before,
for all the experiences left unloved,
for all the days you've lived through to make it here,
for finding a new favorite color,
for buying your first home,
for finding love in small acts of kindness,
for complimenting strangers,
for the people who are saying to meet you
for your dances in the rain and for those long nights that you fear might not ever end,
live for this incredibly cheesy poem that probably will never see the light of day

and finally, live for that light at the end of your long tunnel for the day you finally make it out alive, battered and bruised and beaten but very much alive and still breathing

live.

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