my gift to this pathetic world ( dekubaku

December 4

Katsuki's pov

i wake up. adjusting my eyes to the light. i placed my feet on the cold wooden floor. i walked over to my closet and got dressed. i yawned and looked around. i felt as if i  something was off but i just shake my head and start heading to class. i walk in and remember. " FUCK! it's Saturday- " i sigh and start walking back to my dorm. i am just going to sleep all day or something. as i was walking back. i hear something. i look around. hm.. nothing. i continue to my dorm. it getting ever so louder, a buzzing, a ringing in my ear! ugh! i roll my eyes. i walk in my dorm and slap the door closed. i find some knives. it's been to long... it's been to much seconds, minutes, hours.. DAYS! i need too!. i place the blade on my wrist. slicing the skin open, red liquid flowing out. i continue till i feel a tab bit light headed. i bandage it up and change into a hoodie and sweatpants. i look at the time. it being 8:08 am. i sigh and fall onto my bed. falling into a deep sleep i wish would never end. 

Izuku's Pov

seeing as it was the weekend everyone was gonna go home for the day due to the villain stuff and wanted to be there with their family. can't blame them apparently 539 bodies were all ready reported dead!!!. that killer is really good at it's job.., i shake my head and walk out my dorm. me and Kacchan's parents have been out on vacation coming back next month. so just me and Kacchan unless he went with his friends. i hum as i go to the common room just to see if anyone had stayed, but no. i sigh and walk back to my dorm before hearing the faintest sound. the dorms were soundproof so they must've been infront of the door. i walk towards the sound of the sobbing to stop infront of Kacchan's dorm. i was confused and shocked. i knocked on the door, it all went pretty quiet from there. i tilt my head in confusion. i knock again to nothing. i know i shouldn't but i opened the door. to see Kacchan looking up at me from the ground as it seemed as if he backed up from the door. " h-hey kacchan.. " i say walking towards him. he seems paralyzed. i reach my hand out for him to get up, he slaps it away and gets up by himself. " GET THE FUCK OUT! DEKU! " he screams. " i-i....- I just wanted to see if you were okay! " i yell back, about to walk out when i hear a frustrated sound come from the blonde. i look at him as he looks down tugging his hair. " UGH! " he yells. and start bashing his head on the wall!. i run over to him and hold him back. " OI! LET GO! " he screams trying to get out of my grip " NO! " i scream. he looks at me, as if i was a monster or something. i put him on his bed. " i just want you to be okay! why can't i ever be nice to you?! what's so wrong with me wanting to be your friend?! what's so wrong with me wanting to help?! WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?! " i scream at him. he looks away tears streaming down his face. i inhale and exhale. " i'm sorry... " i say. he just ignores me. " please... just..-  you know what.. nevermind " i say. you know what.. i give up! he's only treated me like TRASH! AND I TRY TO BE NICE AND STUFF!. i storm out the room slamming the door closed. i honestly have no regret and don't feel the tiniest bad! i walk to my dorm and just lay on my bed scrolling through my liked songs on Spotify. i click a song and let it play away as i fall asleep. 

Katsuki's pov

i continue to cry. i'm so horrible!.., i grab a knife. this'll help..! it always helps! i pull my sleeve up and just... cut away. i have to say... i deserve this!.. i sigh as i continue. after a few minutes i stop. the knife bloody and my wrist. i clean them both up then bandage my arm. i then fall asleep.

( i want to say sorry for the fanfic taking so long!- i've been in a bad place so this just makes alittle worse with the self-harm and suicide stuff- )