(Trigger warning: Mention of suc*de, I'll warn when it comes up)
____________________________________________________________________ ____________________________________________________________________ Len
It took me 0.1 second to recognise who angrily said those four dangerous words to me.
"I fucking hate you!"
And atleast 3 seconds to realise that I was hurt...
She really did hate me huh?
She had complete reasons to hate me and I could myself not deny that what I did was awfully wrong and was I guilty? Hell yeah!
How could I be so... so careless? So careless to not realise that this prank was not a funny one, and how could I not take her hints, why the hell was I so dumb?!
I couldn't sleep, whenever I closed my eyes, insane scenarios started in my mind and I was just flipping in my bed, it was cold, the wintery breeze entering my room through the ventilators, my duvets were carelessly lying on the edge of my bed, and I was just lying here, flipping from one side to another.
The cold didn't bother me, even though my hands and body were numb, the sweat that secreted on my forehead and neck was enough to keep me warm, I was afraid...
Was she ever gonna talk to me? Were we gonna go back to where we were? What if she leaves? What if she tells her fans about it? What if she gets so broken her heart will never be fixed?!
All this 'what if's were killing me.
Somehow, I slept, I don't know how, I just fell asleep...
(T/w: mention of suic*de)
* * *
"So this is how its gonna be huh?"
"Get down! Don't do it!!", I cry as I watch her stand on the edge of the building.
"This is all your fault Allen!", she screamed, "All your fucking fault!!"
"Please Sukie! We can talk this out, just please get down!!"
"We cannot!!", she cried panicking me even more, "We can't do anything now Len! We cannot go back to what we were! This is where it all ends!"
Tears streamed down my cheeks, "Please Sukie, we'll talk this out... Please please!!"
I was trembling, sweat streaming down my back and hands.
I watched her standing on the edge of the 6th floor balcony of the huge hotel, there were no people around, just her and me.
"You broke me Len! And I can't be fixed! I can't do this anymore!!", she yelled hurt clear in her voice.
"I'm so sorry, just calm down! Jumping off will not help!!", I cried desperately trying to make her understand.
"It won't anymore Len...it just wont..."
* * *
(T/w: end of suic*de mention)
My eyes shot open, I was in my bed, panting and gasping for air.
My body had gone limp, my breathing was heavy and I was sweating furiously.
Was that a nightmare?
I rubbed the sweat of my forehead, my hands were still cold by the sweat, I was shivering from head to toe, my lips trembled and I was panicking.
"Len!"
A long screech filled my ears and everything seemed blurry, I closed my eyes and blinked a few times. The faint voice of my mom calling me echoed through my ears, my eyes rolled back as I started to sweat more and then...
