Downward Spiral (Izuocha)

Chapter 33 Promise

Ochako P.O.V.

We sat there in silence, Deku seemingly dozing off a few times, with his head banging and then jolting back up, but never looking at any of us in the eye. Waiting for Iida and Yaoyorozu wasn't the worst nor the most time consuming, as five minutes later they arrived and we circled Deku while he sat on the couch, but even he knew the turn this conversation would take, even if neither of us wanted to speak up first. Eventually, it was Iida who voiced the overall concern that not only us, but many other classmates also felt, without the use of his signature hand movements knowing that this was a serious subject. "Could you tells us if the situation you are in has happened before Midoriya?" He hesitantly nodded, still refusing to look at any of us and without giving out more information, meaning that this would be more of an interrogation if anything. "Has it always been this serious?" he continued, only for Deku to stiffen for a second and then use his dry voice to contradict the implied statement. "It isn't serious..." but of course, none of us believed him, yet he would not back out from this situation. If anything, it was the most determined he had been in weeks.

"Deku,we just want to help and stop this. We want the smiling boy that constantly muttered and stuttered but would offer any kind of help in a heartbeat." 'The boy I fell for'. And although I didn't say it, many of the girls were already speculating this when they had first asked me about a crush. He finally took a glance at me, and his look was one that could shatter anyone's heart. Pained eyes that were full of guilt, nose scrunched up sniffing, but no tears coming out, seemingly having his eyes be dried out a long time ago. He used his right forearm to scratch his eyes and the heavy purple bags under them to look at me and say "I'll stop now." as if he could just turn his new demeanour on and off at his command and whenever he pleased. "What do you mean you'll stop Midoriya? You need help, our help." It was once again Iida who spoke up, looking at the unruly set of hair just slowly shake his head in denial and lowly mutter 'no' multiple times that only the five of us could hear due to our close proximity.

"I didn't ask for your help at the sports festival. Neither did Iida. Yet you were still there, even if we had denied it at first, you had insisted in butting into our personal problems." It was now Todoroki who decided to state facts, probably speaking about when all three of them encountered Stain and  when Deku convinced him of using his fire."I'm sorry fo-" "It isn't for you to apologise Midoriya. It was to make you understand that we will do the same for you, especially when it involves something that affects you so drastically. So tell us what is the cause of this." Todoroki cut Deku and stated the facts that we had gone over yesterday, almost demanding answers to which Deku seemed to contemplate, opening and closing his mouth several times before finally making himself heard. "I can't tell you, but I'll stop it. I promise." and that was the most vague statement to come out of his mouth, but none of us was satisfied with this answer. "What do you mean you promise to stop it Deku?" I asked the question that was in everyone's mind, beating Tsu to it who was surprisingly quiet.

Izuku P.O.V.

'I made my choice, its for the best. For them, my mom, All Might and Togata. Probably for even more people.' I slowly raised my head, only to be met with a questioning and distraught look from Uraraka, who had asked the final question. "I promise that I'll end this by tomorrow night. If it isn't by then, you can force yourself to get involved" I said, quickly looking at everyone that had rounded me here. However, I was not expecting what came afterwards. "You promise Midoriya? You promise that you will end this? *kero* The croak had been the most painful one I ever heard from her, and her voice had broken a few times, with small tear streaks going down her cheeks, waiting for an answer. "I really do promise" and although they may have not known it then, but it was my way of confessing of the actions that I would take tomorrow night. It may not be like Kacchan had suggested and diving off of a rooftop, but I think that I could be easily stopped, and I had grown much more accustomed to that type of pain. I slowly got up, and took two steps towards the staircase, but was stopped dead in my tracks as someone grabbed my shoulder.

"Can we ask about your physical state and your arms Midoriya?" Yaoyorozu asked. She being the smartest person in class ment she had done several guesses on my situation, and although her grip was not firm, I would prefer to answer rather than forcing myself out of this one. "I prefer not to talk about that." and with that, I continued on my way, not daring to take a glance back at them, already feeling some of the few tears left in my system threatening to come out for a few last times before tomorrow. I reached my room and locked the door once inside, laying on my bed soon after and listening to music while silent tears escaped, instead of the over the top thick tears that some of them had gotten to know. I already had my letters prepared, at least the one for my mom, while the other two were a work in progress,one holding a small vial with a strand of my hair to pass down the sacred torch that was foolishly given to me. I finally gave in, after contemplating it years before, the conclusion had never seemed more clear than before, and although it pained me to come to this, I knew it was for the best, as trash deserved to be thrown away.

Heyo. Yeah um, dark ending there heh. So its getting to that point and I cannot stress this enough that if you are suffering from severe depression or just feel a bit sad, please seek help. It is for the best of all of us, and believe me when I say that I am always available if you need me to. I hope you have or had a great day, remember that we are all special and powerful. I'll see you tomorrow.