THE LOSER IN ME

PART 1- I REMEMBER CLEARLY

"Ken! What are you doing?" Asked Mary terrifically.
"Stop the car! Stop the car now!" (Even in complete despair)
"I can't, I don't even know what's urrrgh.... I can't control it." Said Ken, trying to stop the car.

"Wait,we-ran-out-of-gas?" Said Ken bowing his head.
"No way, this can't be happening, this shouldn't be happening now."Said Mary as she tries to contain the situation.
But it was too late. The car's engine knocked out and there was a fatal accident.
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(Abigail wakes up terrified)
"Mom! Mom! Where are you?" (Looking very scared)
"Over here sweetheart," Mary replied.
"Hope you slept well, my little baby?"
(With a sigh of relief and nodding, she asked) "Mom,where are you going to?"
"Your dad and I will be taking a drive down the city to pick your uncle up, your favorite uncle, darling." Said Mary as she chuckled.

"But mom, I had a dream, it's a terrible one."
(Rushing to meet her mom as Mary walks away to get her handbag)
"Mom, you have to listen to me."
"It's just a dream, baby girl. And you always have dreams so, no matter what dream it is, it'll always be a dream. It's not reality, Abigail."
(Sobs as she sits to cry, wrapping her arms around her knee caps)
"Mom I don't want to lose you. Tell dad to let you stay back. I'm scared."
"Don't worry, honey. I won't forget to get your favorite. Apples!" (She tries to whisper)
"But mom?"
"I love you, sweetheart. Bye." ( as she rushes for the door handle)
"Abigail, don't you love me anymore?"
(Fastening her eyes on her)
"I love you, mom." (Sobs)
"Oh, come here my little princess. Come give me a hug."
(Standing quickly to meet her) "awww, that's my baby. I'll be back in a short while.
Now, go back to your room and wait for Jessica to come dress you up for school, okay?" "Bye, mom." She replied.
(Leaving for her room as Mary stood by the door to watch her go up the stairs).
"I love you, baby." (She leaves for the car)

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"Ma'am Jessica? Are my parents safe out there?" (Making sure her eyes doesn't catches that of her Nanny)
"Why did you ask?" (Raising Abigail's chin up)
"I don't know, I just want them to be fine." She said looking at her.
"Of course dear, they are fine and safe."
(Looking at her wristwatch)
"It's just 15 minutes more and your school bus will be here, so dear, let's hurry up and please wear a large smile, my beautiful princess."
(Abigail tries to smile)
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"Ma'am Jessica, this breakfast tastes super nice," she smiled.
"Yes dear, I made it specially for you."
"Now hurry up and eat, we have no time to spare."

(Bus horns, once and next twice)

"Abigail, it's time dear." (Jessica calls out)

"I'm on my way out, ma'am Jessica. Bye."

"Bye dear, take care of yourself. I love you."

In the bus.....

"Why does your nanny treats you like her child?" Peculiar asked.
"Well, I don't know. But I love her. She's nice and my parents love her too, we all do," said Abigail.
"Now children, quiet!" (A teacher said)

"Ouch! Who hit me?" Abigail cried out.
"I did." (A pupil looking furious said)
"Miss Juliana, Stephen hit me!" (Abigail still crying, walked towards miss Juliana)
"It's okay dear, when we get to class, I'll deal with him, okay?"
"Yes ma."
"So wipe your tears now, cause we're almost the....re..."
"AH!!!!"
(Everyone trying to define their fear with a word)
(Bus clunking continuously)

With one glimpse, Abigail could see her dream taking form before her eyes.

"Everyone, quickly, make use of your seatbelts," said miss Juliana.
"If you can't fix it, raise your hands and let me help." But many hands were up and less than ten seconds was needed.
Screaming at the driver, she said, "Stop the bus!"
"But, but, I can't find the brake pad," said the driver.
"What do you mean you can't find the....."
(In despair, she rushed to the children to calm them)

Fifty percents were crying and the least she could do was to make sure she wasn't panicking as she watched and helped them fixed their seatbelts.

Slowly, hope seemed lost and they sat still and watched their demise befall them.

Sobbing quietly, Abigail rushed to miss Juliana for a hug, as if it were her last.
Her head on her left shoulder and miss Juliana, thought of a lullaby.

"They're children and this should work." She thought to herself.

Slowly and calmly, she sang to them "Baa baa black sheep
Have you any wool?
Yes sir, yes sir,
Three bags full
One for my master
And one for my dame
And one for the little boy
That lives down the lane" repeatedly.

In a moment, the tensed atmosphere became cool.
The bus somersaulted into a bush nearby.
Crushed by a tree and silence was at its peak.
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"Abigail, Abigail. Can you see me?" Mary asked whispering.
"Mom! Is that you?" Asked Abigail.

Trying to open her eyes to see clearly and to hug her mom whom she thought had come to rescue her. Getting up and the next thing she heard was a loud hit.
"Where did it come from?" She thought as she turned to see her uncle standing behind her parents' Toyota Camry, pulling a rod behind him as he walked towards her mom.

"Ah ah ah!" He laughed loudly.
Without realising that Abigail was watching.

"Mom!" She screamed but was held back by miss Juliana from screaming again.
"Shhhh," she said putting her right index finger on her lips.

"My mom's going to die, don't let him hurt her." She said crying.
"No dear, she won't. I'll call 911 and we'll all be fine." As she turned to show Abigail the rest of the pupils who were already unconscious.

So much for Abigail to bear, she rushed to meet Peculiar as she fell back to her feet, realising she had broken her legs.
Burst into tears and turned to miss Juliana who had already started conversing with the emergency service attendant.

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In less than ten minutes, she could hear the emergency siren ten metres away.
Fastening her eyes back on her mom but didn't see her neither the car.
Unable to comprehend the situation but Deafened by the loud siren. She fell to unconsciousness with her last words, "mom."

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