I'm gonna start introducing myself. My name is Lizzy and I'm 15 years old. I'm a Malaysian.
Many people has many different problems. But most common problem is,"Family problems, relationship problems, studies , and businesses."
Well since I'm just 15, my problems will be FAMILY PROBLEMS.
My parents were separated even before I was born. Sometimes I really wanna ask them since they've already separated, why did they even wanna give birth to me ? Well some Christians believe that it's God plan, but what about you ?
I was born in a Christian background, but I don't even be live that God exists!
I was living in a darkest world in my live. I cut myself. I locked myself in the room. I do whatever I want even if people will look me in another ways. My parents used to force me to go to church, but every Sunday morning I'll give thousand excuses.....
My parents were believer last time but as me and my brothers start schooling and working, they stopped going to church. I was a pampered child Cuz I'm the only daughter and I'm the youngest among all my siblings and cousins. Whatever I like my parents will buy for me. I didn't know that actually my parents were separated. They wanted to divorce when I was 6. But because I was too young and they don't want me to live in pain so they decided to live together but not talking to each other.
They don't really accompany me when I was young. They use money to accompany me which they think that it's good enough for me.....
When I grown up to be a teenage, people outside will start to tell me what's happening to my family and start to gossip about it. I cried almost every night I wanted to end my life sometimes.
Until 2013, when I was 13 years old. My cousin invited me to go to his church's concert. I went there with my second brother and I found it interesting. So I started attending that church. And I started praying and learning about God. Every end of the year, our church will have youth camp which is open for all youth to join. I took quite a long time to think if I really wanna go to that camp...... But my mom encouraged me to go and I was so shy and lonely at first Cuz I don't know any of them. During the camp briefing, I met few girls who are around my age. Surprisingly they have almost the same problem as mine too ! We hangout together at campsite everyday. During the night rally while everyone was worshiping the Lord, I head something inside my heart asking me to come back home. And I could speak in tongue immediately ! And I saw a vision. I told everything to one of our camp speaker and told her about my family problems. She prayed for me and on that particular night, my girls and I accepted Christ as our personal Saviour. But we knew that it's gonna be challenging our faith. So as time goes by, we met a lot of problems and we overcame it. We prayed everyday to God just to have peaceful mind. But sadly last year was a bad year to me. My dad admitted into hospital very often and he was possessed by evil spirit. My mind was filled with fear every single moment when I think about it. I had insomnia after seeing him shouting every night. I was so scared until I decided to go church every single day and not going back home to face the same problem. And I shifted out with my mom. I asked many pastors to pray for me that I'll be recovered from insomnia but it doesn't really work. I had a friend who's currently studying Psychology course in college. He approached me what to do and not to do to reduce my stress. And it works so I started following all the instructions and by God's grace 3 months later I overcame my fear and I slept well. And now my aunts are begging me to go home but the fear does conquer me sometimes. It's really hard for me to go back and face my dad. But I do pray for him every night and I pray that he will be safe wherever he goes. I really thank God from helping me when I'm deep in pain. And now I'm ready for the next challenge that God's gonna give me. And just a word of encouragement to y'll, no matter what happens, seek God and He will always be there for you. Have Faith. It's not that your prayer doesn't work it's because God is testing your faith and your prayer will work when it's the right time. :)
