My name is Noni. Me and Missy hav been friends since pre-k. We've been through boy after boy together. And countless family disasters. But nothing would prepare me for this. Nothing. Her face. Disappointment. I had to tell her. I couldn't keep a secret like this from her. It's not like me or her could've prevented it. He was captivating. But so was he. The hardest thing was to look in her face and tell her I wasn't what she thought I was. I wasnt a whore. But it would take a lot of explaining to make her think other ways. Would she tell everyone?
Let me break this down for you...
I dated Ryan for a year. And for that year he made my life. He sweet talked me. Made me fall in love with him. His blue eyes could melt my soul. And then ripped my heart out. He cheated. Multiple times. He was my first.
Then came Cane. I've known Cane since 6th grade. I know he wanted me. I saw him look at me that way sophomore year. His shark looking eyes. God. He was a pothead. But he had gotten clean.
Senior year my life fell apart and it started again. It was Halloween and I had went to a party. It was me Missy, Cane, and Ryan. I went upstairs looking for Ryan
I saw Sarah Lone getting her face sucked off and some dude, most likely a college dude, slipping his hand up her skirt.
"Hey, Sarah!" the music was deafening.
She looked over his shoulder. "Im a little busy."
She was more than a little as I heard a zipper go down
"Do you know where Ryan went?"
She pointed to a door.
As I got closer I heard noises. It.... it was another girl moaning. I walked in to see some slut on top of him. Boy was he embarassed. "Good luck getting him to put out." That was all I could think to say. I slammed the door and left. I ran straight for the street. Missy and Cane came out running.
I sat on the curb. They said nothing they just sat down with me.
Cane handed me his drink. "Its gonna be alright."
"You sure it will?"
"No. Thats why were here."
For the next 2 months I sulked in my room and was a savage bitch. Until one night Cane came to my rescue. He texted me
Cane: Hey.
Me: Hey.
Cane: Can I come over?
Me: Sure ig.
Cane: Ill come in through the balcony. Let me know when its lights out.
For some reason it made me smile a bit.
I texted him lights were out and he was climbing in my bed in no time.
We've never actually done anything. It's just that since 6th grade we've had this comfort thing. Like he was my older brother protecting me. But that night was different. He was different.
"Hey Noni?"
"Yea?"
"I... I... have been waiting a while to tell you and to deside the right time. "
I adjusted under him to make eye contact. Now we were face to face laying down with his hands creeping down my sides.
"Tell me what?"
"I really like you."
And I really liked him to. I have since the 8th grade. But how do u tell someone who is so close to you that you wanna be with them. And I told him the truth. "Really? Because im pretty sure I love you."
And just like that my hellcoaster began.
We layed there and fell asleep. It was wonderful.
