Revenge TG

Confrontation

I was on the public MTA bus coming going to college getting of the stop. I saw some girl who looked familiar. She was extremely beautiful. She was Indo-Caribbean(brown) like me. She looked so cute. I was a shy guy and got nervous from staring at her. I never ever met her but I always thought about her nonstop and worried about her which was so cringe. I was also perverted and got turned on by her and fantasized about her only for a pleasure of release because of my addiction that many men had like me. I was also a hypocrite who betrayed God thousands of times and lied to people. I was a liar and gave into the fire. I spoiled it sometimes. I couldn't help it. She looked at me and I turned away. I remembered that she tried to see me. I just wanted to view her as a crush not obsessed with her for four years. I wasn't obsessed. Obsessed isn't the right word. I just kept thinking about her. I felt guilty looking at her. She wore a black shiny leather jacket. She also had a sleek side part black ponytail. I watched MGTOW videos. One of them from YogiOabs stated that if a girl wears a leather jacket then it means that she's a harlot. I don't know if it was true but probably. The video was his reaction to the Jubilee video of women ranking men based on attractiveness. "Pervert turn around!" a voice said. I froze. I then decided to take off. I walked briskly and then she tackled me onto the grass as my book bag fell of. I was afraid to look at her because she was just too beautiful. My crush loved doing public display of affection with her boyfriend. I didn't understand why I was jealous when he kissed her. I watched FaZe Rug's prank video of doing PDA in front of his family and friends. I didn't understand myself.  I stared in my crush's beautiful eyes. God took time creating her for sure. My crush was on top of me and I laid in the grass. She sat on my waist and had her arms pinned on my shoulders. "You're so pathetic." I tried to get up put she pressed on me too hard. She was too close. She smelled sweet, her pheromones. I sweated nervously and blushed. Her ponytail also went in my face and I tried to move it because it. It smelled sweet too. I didn't want to smell like her! "What's in your backpack honey?" She sat on my stomach and moved further up to my chest to reach my backpack. She opened it and looked through it. "Let's see if there's anything interesting. Oh what's this?" She took out a book. It was my diary. She opened my diary and read it. "Today I feel depressed because I don't feel that connected with God. I fail thousands of times and sin. I sin that's why I'm so far from him. I lie too, to my family about simple things. I've been procrastinating and lying. Sometimes I'm in the wrong mindset because of the devil's power and temptation and I ruin things that I love doing the most." She smiled. "Well this is mine now. I'll be taking it." 

"I need it," I said quietly trying not to make a scene also because I was shy from meeting her. 

"What? You speak to low! I can't hear you," she said looking at me. I closed my eyes to not see her. "You know I'm still here, right? You can't close your eyes and automatically make me disappear, pervert but I'll make your manhood disappear. You're going to become a hot model. Deal with the pain I go through and not just jack off to me like I'm some piece of meat because I'm not. You are." She took out a bar which was gold and had Hebrew engravements. "This is the pervert detector and also will make you into a hot female. I became hotter because of a curse you did on me through saying it. You said, 'I curse her to become extremely beautiful' or something like that. Perv. Is that your way of revenge? I'll show you." I didn't believe her. "Hot girl. I'll turn you into a sexy model." The bar vibrated and I felt vibration and tingling all over my body. "Hahaha. I got my revenge! Justice at last."
I felt less nervous for some reason and didn't have a romantic or sexual attraction to her anymore.