When We Lost Each Other | TaeGyu Fanfiction

>SUMMER FOUR<

~SUMMER FOUR~

+It will always be the reason+

My Gyu,

I just had a panic attack last night but since I was so stubborn I am writing this diary for you, because even sickness can't stop me from loving you. My Noona fought my parents last night. She knows our everything and she lost her patience because our parents are too much. I know you will be happy if you are here with me. They asked me why I loved you but instead of answering I asked them back.

"Why did you love each other?"

They went in silence for a minute and said that it was a different case, I asked why it was different and they answered the same thing.

"Because you loved a man"

I laughed sarcastically when I heard that. Of course! It will always be the reason. I loved a man and not a woman. What's wrong with their mindsets? They are my parents and they should know how to respect my decisions because they were on my shoes before, their parents didn't respect their decisions too, I was hoping that they won't do the same but I was wrong. I wanna answer them back but I still have my respect for them.

I was suprised when my older brother entered the room and shouted, "What's wrong with him loving a man?! Gender is nonsense! We are all human here, stop being cruel to him and act like a human!" We were very surprised because he is the family's favorite sheep and he stepped in just to protect me. To protect us, and that's the thing that I failed to do.

I know my parents won't accept me for who I am and it hurts so much, but it will never be the reason for me to stop loving someone like you. I just regret letting you go when I am still inlove with you. I regret hurting you. And now, I know that everything will never be the same.

I remember how I put my head on your shoulder and how you sing "4 o'clock" for me. Your deep voice, I miss it. I miss how I fell asleep everytime you sang that song. I miss writing songs for you. I miss singing while we're cooking together. I miss doing aegyo in front of many people for you to choose an outfit for me.

Sorry if I told you that I loved your hair so much, now you are having a hard time for that. Having a hard time to cut it just because you don't want to cut ties with me and our memories.

Remember that time when you made a phone case design for me? I'm still using it. One time, when my Noona found me crying over you again, she climbed up to our rooftop and your gift for me was thrown away by her. I want to hit her so bad but I couldn't. I spent my whole day to find it but I failed. I never eat even I was hungry, I did not take a drink even I was thirsty.

My Noona asked why I was killing myself just to find a cheap phone case. I cried and cried in pain saying that it was your gift and I am gonna die without that. She gave it back to me. I did not say thank you because she was the one who threw it away. It was so special, as special as you. She told me that, what she did to my phone case, is what I did to you. You were thrown away by me, I dumped you just as simple as that. I pushed you away knowing that I will never find another you. That even the world current population is 7.8 billion, I will never find someone like you.

My Noona was just trying to wake me up from my dreams. She was trying to protect us from me. She was just trying to stop me from killing myself when in the very first place, I was the reason why I am being like this. I was the only one who did this to myself.

How could I wake myself up from my nightmare if my one and only alarm clock is not here anymore?

PLAGIARISM IS A CRIME
@zaydeemon