Ever Since New York // H.S. - ON HOLD

CHAPTER 32 - YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL

Enjoy this cute chapter filled with lots of H & G content.

Embrace the honeymoon phase while it lasts :)

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~HARRY'S POV~

"I see a mansard roof through the trees..."

Reaching across the dash, I turn up the volume on the console, allowing the uplifting tempo of the song to fill the vacant air in my car. As of late, I have found myself listening to music that reminds me of Evelyn. We have very similar taste, but her's is much more attuned to current times.

The other night while we were on FaceTime she had this Vampire Weekend record playing quietly in the background and she raved about it. I've been listening to it quite a lot ever since.

Driving on the freeway toward Ev's house, absolutely nothing can ruin my elated mood—not even the horrific LA traffic I am stuck in. It is rush hour and Californian's have zero ounce of patience in their blood, all dashing off to their prospective destinations. I, however, am enjoying the peace the drive brings me.

I have had a very busy week with not much time to reflect on life's recent happenings.

Sucking in a deep breath, feeling cooled by the car's AC, I think back to the start of the chaotic rollercoaster of events.

Getting that call from Ev—Amber at the time—made me realize how deep we both were in. I guess that is why I wanted to spend the day with Ginny. From experience, I am very good with children and love spending time with them honestly. G is quite the charmer, full of so much spunk and personality, I really enjoy being with her.

I also wanted to show Evelyn that she can trust me with taking care of G. How I feel about her extends to Ginny as well. All I want is to support them and show them the love they deserve to feel.

That day, I was feeling very similar to how I feel right now. Ten feet tall, over the moon, on cloud nine—however you want to put it—that is how I felt, but little did I know it wouldn't last very long.

I still can't quite wrap my brain around how I felt the moment I put together context clues and realized Ev had been lying to me. In hindsight, I understand, and I will never hold it against her. But in the moment, all I could see were the red flags I had overlooked.

Typically, I find myself to be a really good judge of character. I can usually tell when people are genuine and true to themselves. Those are the people I want to surround myself with, and overtime I have learned to weed out the ones who aren't as authentic as they seem to be.

I think that is why I have always taken it so hard when I end up being wrong.

Usually, I just get mad at myself for getting it wrong to begin with. For not realizing sooner that those people don't turn out to be how I perceived them to be. With Evelyn, however, I became fueled by betrayal.

I was, and still am, falling very fucking hard for that woman. Only to find out that the person I was growing to care for had lied about her identity? It quite literally feels as though you are being stabbed in the back with a blazing hot knife.

You begin to question their intentions. If they lied about something so simple, what else were they lying about? Had it all just been an act? Should I have been more reserved like she was? If I hadn't caught her, where would this have ended up?

Those questions were all I could think about in the moment.

I so desperately wanted her to give me a logical explanation. Ease my mind and give me a reason to believe she wasn't lying. That I got it all wrong and she had been truthful from the beginning.