The music in our hearts

Sofia

"I think we can do it if we tried, only to say your mine" 

Those lyrics played in my head over and over again with the thought of one person on my mind. Him. His eyes even though they frightened me. His voice that he used to scream at me repeatedly.  His hair as white as snow, and his body as cold. I loved him. I could never admit it to myself, could never give in. But i was, was he? i wish i knew because he was a bigger mystery to me than myself.  

"Draco know that you and i shouldn't feel like a crime"

I was completely certain back then he didn't, that he was using me i was nothing. It was all a game. During my years at Hogwarts i wrote many songs, mostly about him.  Though he never knew not until i told him. Not until i sung them at the school talent shows, not until i slept with him and he told me he loved me. Still i had my doubts did he tell me that so i would sleep with him. 

"You know ill do anything you ask me to, but oh my god i think i'm in love with you"

Was this all planed? Call me stupid call me paranoid but i had to be. My whole life i've been told bad things about him and he proved most of them right. People told me "he'll break your heart", "he'll hurt you", "hes playing you". Apart of me had to be wary of that. But he did love me, he truly did and he was forever thankful for me as i was of him. 

"Standin' here alone i think that we should ride around i just wanna say how i love you with your hair down"

Yes i was a halfblood, he was a pureblood, it was all wrong in his head. "this is all wrong" he used to tell me. "this isn't right, i don't care for you, i don't, i cant. Please stop doing these things to me, just stop" . All i did was love him, make him stay and he hated it. He hated me i told myself. Of course he didn't. Now i think back, i think of how stupid and protective i was of myself. Same for him. "At least your not a mudblood"

"Baby you don't gotta fight ill be here til' the end of time wishin' that you were mine, pull you in its alright"

We were similar and different in so many ways, both Gemini's both emotionally unavailable, both looking for comfort in each other, both desperate for love but not looking for it. we were soulmate. Made exactly for each other. we fit so perfectly that it made us uncomfortable. Like my hand in his, Me and his smells mixed together. Our bodies pushed against on another. So many more things.

"Honey, I don't want it to fade, there's things that I know could get in the way"

"Darling are you alright" He asked me, i was so caught up writing to you that i forgot he was there" 

"i'm fine" i replied "i'm writing to harry"

"of course potter" he said with disdain, i giggled i found it funny when he pretended he still felt the hatred from his childhood towards you. "what exactly are you writing him"

"i never explained to him how we came to be, he's still curious" i said as he moved closer to me on the couch.

"then let him be curious, there are many things i'd rather be doing right now" he said while kissing my neck. He paused to say "anyway the story is way to long" then he continued.

"yeah well he wants to know and i want to tell him. He asked to write it to him as if he were me and it were happening right now" i said with my eyes closed enjoying the sensation of his lip on my  neck. 

"potters a nosy little thing huh? That'll take you ages" he said coming up from my neck.

I pulled him back down to my neck and said "yeah but ill do a little everyday" I paused to kiss him. "I'll start tomorrow" Continuing the kiss, our tongues danced together fighting for dominance  that i wouldn't give. I still had bruises from the last time i decided to be submissive. Not today, it was my turn. 

"I don't want to say goodbye, and I think that we could do it if we tried" 

authors note: Hello simpers, i never wrote a story before besides the one chapter of magic i did and then gave up doing so yeah i'm not even sure if ill stick with this one so lets hope that i do. But being realistic i probably wont and if i do it'll be like once every couple months we'll see. Should the protagonist name be y/n or an actually name? If so what? bye babies. 

The song is "Sofia" by Clairo