Starting Over • m.c

Chapter 20

The elevator doors open on the 5th floor. I make my way down the long narrow hallways to Michael's door, I hesitate before knocking. It's not too late, I can turn around and catch a cab home. I decide to knock. I hear feet shuffling behind the door, seconds later Michael opens the door.

"Angie!" He sounds surprised to see me. "Uhm. Come in" he opens the door more and gestures for me to come in.

"Hi. I-I'm sorry I completely flipped out on you.. Luke told me what happened.." I start off by saying.

"No, Angie! You don't have to apologize for anything. I completely fucked everything up, I guess when you broke up with me and I saw you with Andy I just completely lost my shit. You do something to me, Angie. I've never felt this way about anyone before. Every time I see you my heart skips a beat, I smile uncontrollably, you make me happier than I have ever been! And when I lost you I felt like I lost my whole world. Fuck, Angie! I love you so much and you're always on my mind, there's nothing I can do about it!" I can see Michael tearing up as he said all this. I've never seen him cry before.

"If you love me so much then how could you even think of hooking up with another girl?" I didn't know how I felt at this moment, and I still didn't know if I could believe him.

"I wasn't in the right mind! You just broke up with me, I just saw you with Andy, I went out drinking and it just happened! But nothing actually did happen because I couldn't stop thinking of you." He walks closer to me. I would back up but I couldn't find control over my own body, and with crutches it wasn't the easiest thing to just back up.

"Michael..I-I don't know what to say. I can't do this. I still love you, but I can't go through what just happened again next time you have to go on tour or you see me talking with another guy" I say as I turn my head away from him.

He brings his hands to my face and turns my head back so our eyes meet again.

"I will never let anything like that ever happen to you again. I love you. And there is nothing more I want than for you to be happy, and if your happiness means me not being in your life anymore, well it will break me. But if it's what you want.." He stopped talking and he suddenly pressed his lips against mine. I didn't pull away, I still couldn't find the control to move my body. After a long amazing kiss I finally was able to pull away.

"Michael, I don't want you out of my life! That's the last thing I want. I love you, Michael Clifford. More than anything" he leans in again for another long passionate kiss. Feeling his lips against mine again was the best feeling in the world. I missed this so much.

After we both slowly pulled away, he lead me to the couch and we laid there together. Cuddling. All night.