When We Lost Each Other | TaeGyu Fanfiction

>SUMMER FIVE<

~SUMMER FIVE~

+My Side+

My Gyu,

Goodmorning Gyu! I read your diary for once again. How I wished I was there to cook something for you. I am not a good cook but atleast I don't burned my food. I wished I was there to give you morning kisses and hugs. How I wished I could go back to those mornings when I was still doing backhugs and make you face the mirror and looked how handsome we were lol.

I miss how you would always looked at our reflections, and say how much you loved me. I want to cry while writing this but I couldn't. I want to feel the pain but I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't feel those knives that were stabbing me. Those bullets that were killing me.

You're not the only one who always felt empty, I am too. I am still blaming myself, regretting the pain I gave you. You're not the only one who kept on looking back. I may be the one who left you behind, but it does not mean that I am heartless. I need you because I love you. I need you because you took away my independence too.

I used to lived for thirteen years by my own, and then you came into my life, and spent five years with me. It was just five years but I have known how to depend on you. I'd spent nine months inside my mother's womb and eighteen years of taking care of myself but you manage to broke me for just a second—I mean I broke myself because I had to leave you.

This time, I will explain my side. I know that you won't be able to read this anymore because you already left your life as a writer, you quit writing stories, but I want to let the world know how hard it was for me when I had to leave you.

My manager know about us and he respected us, but when that girl idol showed up and threatened me and my manager, saying that if I don't date her, she will tell her parents to ruin us. Her parents are known for being rich and powerful.

I never left you because I wanted to protect my career, I hope you know how much I love you more than my career. I did that, I left you, because I had to protect my manager and his family. I had to protect the staffs who took care of me. I did that to protect my family and of course to protect you.

And yes, I assume that even after I broke your heart, you would open your arms for me again but I expected too much.

I never hated you for not coming back into my arms again, because in the very  freaking first place, I was the one who left you behind, sorry if you lost yourself, I lost mine too. I lost my everything and that was you. They said that  people need to live a happy life to survive for a long time, but for me, sometimes we need to feel the pain to be happy.

Meeting and losing you were the most memorable things that happened in my freaking life. Remember that you will always have this special place inside my heart and no one would be able to replace you. You will always be the king of my life and no one will be able to dethrone you. The world might forget you but I won't.

Gyubye hyung...

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