As we fall

Forced vacations

Mia's POV

It's been yet again another week without Hayden. He calls and text the phone that he gave me often but I can't seem to answer him after hearing all those words he'd said about children. He has to know that I want to a mother I've warned him what gypsys expect and want out of life. If he doesn't want kids then he doesn't want me,  because I planned my life around it. I wonder if Kim's still pregnant or if Hayden made her go through with the abortion.. I know I'm against that but if this happens I'm losing Hayden forever. Even if I did stay with him then I'd be the reason that little baby grows up without it's dad around. I can't be the one to prevent a family from being together. Maybe they are meant to be.. my deep thoughts are interrupted with a small knock,,,

Mia are you all packed up? Mom ask from my door way.

Yeah I just gotta figure which heels to bring. I say while stuffing one last pair of tights into my suitcase. Going to Oklahoma in December is a bad idea ma, it's gonna be snowing and freezing! I yell drastically.

Well good thing we're going to be in a hotel resort at the casino. She smirks.

Do you remember the plan? I'm gonna keep the millers and your father gambling that way you can spend a little time with tommy. I want you to get to know him and feel comfortable with your soon to be husband. The whole reason for this family trip is for me and your father to get to know these people too. She assures me with a smile.

Ma I agreed that I'd try didn't I?  I had a small conversation with tommy already and I can tell that I'm not gonna get along with him. But I promise I'll play nice and see where the hell it goes from there! I snap.

You've only planted it in your head that you don't like tommy because of that "Guysho" you brought into our home! She snaps back.

That "Guysho"?? Really? You guys all saw me in deep depression, staying in my room, not talking to anyone, not even eating! This is not something that happened over night! I've spent time with him, a lot of time and I know him. To be honest he knows me better then anyone in this house! And I love him maah. I say with tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably.
All this, and you guys didn't even bother to ask the name of the man that holds my heart...I nearly whisper the last words.

Through all my blabbering confessions she simply ask,,    Mia did you sleep with this boy? She says with a hint of flare in her eyes and I'm almost afraid of telling her the truth.

I drop my gaze directly to the bed away from her stare down,,  yes..   I say weakly.

Oh Mia how could you? These people are paying for a virgin! Oh my god what will I tell your father?? She nervously whispers through her ramble.

You don't tell him! I say too loud.  I mean don't say anything mom just pretend you don't know.   Mia these people,,, no mom fuck these people their not gonna find out I'm not a virgin. Not like their gonna do the white sheet test like the old days. I assure her.

I don't know... your future mother in law seems old fashioned. She actually might! She says laughing but it doesn't help the nervous feeling filling my stomach.

Everyone's packed up and in the car as we leave for the weekend to the winstar casino and resort. With my future husband and his family. Great.

We arrive and get settled into our hotel. As we're all finished getting dressed we leave the room and meet the millers downstairs in the lobby.

Everyone eats dinner at a fancy restaurant then decides it's time to gamble and "try to hit a jackpot" as they say, and before I know it me and tommy are alone...