When We Lost Each Other | TaeGyu Fanfiction

>SUMMER SIX<

~SUMMER SIX~

+I was your___ but...+

My Gyu,

I am feeling depressed right now. I really miss you. My Noona was asking me yesterday if I was okay, she asked me as if she doesn't know my pain. I am not fine and I think, I will never be fine since I lost you. You messed up, I messed up. That girl idol was asking me too, she asked where am I and what I have been doing. She thought that I was having a vacation but that's bullshit.

I told her that I already lost my life because of her. I told her that my life was ruined by her. I told her that I won't ever forgive her for being selfish and for taking away my everything. You were my universe and I didn't think what my family will think about my sudden actions. I didn't care about hurting other people because they didn't even care about us. They never thought about the pain they brought to us. They never cared about our hearts that were broken and souls that still drowning.

I wished I could be this selfish when I still had you, I wished I just cared for you and nobody else. If only I never cared for anyone, I would never hurt you. But is it wrong to care about for the people around me?

I read your diary again. You said you dated guys and a girl, I'm jealous that they had a chance to date you but I'm also hurt by the fact that you kept on seeing me while dating them, you kept on finding another me. Please stop hurting yourself because I already hurt you so much, please stop blaming yourself when you did nothing bad. You are not a failure, you never failed to fight for us. You never failed to loved me, you were so perfect. I was perfect too, and you said that no one could ever be as perfect as me.

You were a great liar you know that? I was never been perfect, you just accepted me for who I was, you just accepted my imperfections and flaws. You were a great pretender when you said that you were alright when you were in pain. You were a great actor when you smiled at me that time. You smiled as if you did not feel any pain, your lips lied but your eyes couldn't. You were acting strong but I know how weak you were. I thought that I would see you crying that day, I was hoping to see you cry because you've been keeping the sorrows inside you, but no, you didn't bursted out your pain, instead you smiled and that was the biggest torture of my life.

Our love was strong but I was weak. I am still making songs for you. People, especially my fans are asking me who inspired me for my songs, I said "someone special" and they thought it was the girl idol.

One time, I was doing a fan meet, that was a week after we broke up. He asked, "Whenever you said I love you to her, I think it's fake. I mean I support you both, but it's just different from the songs you're making. Like it's dedicated for someone else. Do you really love her?" It was your hyung. I answered yes but he mothed liar.

And that was when I remembered, you told me the same thing, you said you could read my eyes easily. I was a transparent book that you read. I was the prince you wanted to get married with. I was the sleeping beauty that you kissed. I was your Olaf who you used to make warm hugs with. I was your Wendy who loved Peter Pan but unfortunately I wanted to grow up.

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