School:the most horrid years of my life and my savior

Chapter One:Seventh Grade

It all started that day I laid my eyes on him but little did I know that boy would cause years of therapy and support groups I guess I should introduce myself right? My name is Jessica I have a last name but I'm not gonna use it in this story anyway I'm 16 and have "emo" style hair with glasses I have to wear or I can't see anyways back to the story now that you know a little about me. It was the first day of school I was sitting in my English class called opening the curtain with our drama teacher he sat by me as soon as I looked him I knew that I had a crush on him we slowly started talking and eventually that lead to note passing in class old fashioned I know eventually I worked up the nerve to ask him out and he said yes I was over the moon happy. Little idiot seventh grader me didn't know what "bases" were he asked if he could be at 3rd base me not knowing what that meant still kind of reluctant said yes. Fast forward to Halloween 2012 I was 13 him and I went trick or treating together later that night we were by a park and I sat down to give my self a break...That's when the worst thing happened to me he did something that I'm not gonna even say the word of. Fast forward another month it's November I stupidly got back together with him notes are being passed between each other again I dropped one in the hall apparently and got pulled into the counselors office and I just spilled everything that happened except for the unspeakable thing that I kept to my self other things happened between him and I me doing things a 13 year old should not do touching him in ways I should not have. I got in trouble because I touched him but he never really touched me but he got the worst punishment he got expelled because of him getting in trouble for other things that I don't know of  I got a one day in school suspension. After all of that it quickly spread through the school that I "put out" and that I was a slut thanks to his twin brother that's when the bullying started and didn't stop.No matter what I did that's when I turned to self harm.