There I was, standing 20 meters away from Agnes. Seeing how happy she is right now with her family gives me no reason to hold on to my feelings for her. I have to let her go so she can find someone who can love her more than I do. It was the most important but decidedly not the easiest decision that I’ve made. For the last time, I look at her intently and turn away before I lose control. As I walked away, I can’t help but reminisce with all the memories that we once shared…
It was first day of school when I met this girl whom I thought would be the last person I would fall for. This girl named Agnes was too plain and simple, silent and a bookworm. She was a total opposite compared to the girls I like who is sexy, damn attractive and popular. As far as I can remember, we were classmates during Tuesdays and Thursdays. Whenever she arrives, she would go straight to the back portion of our classroom and read her books while most of the girls are busy doing their makeup, chit chatting and flirting with boys. I never talked to her even once because I don’t want to be tease by my friend since I am Mr. Popular in our school. But one day, my dislikes, my standards, my whole life, in fact, have taken a hundred-eighty-degree turn.
My best friend and I had a fight because of my girlfriend. I found out that my best friend and girlfriend was cheating on me. I was so furious with my best friend not because he stole my girlfriend, but because I felt so stupid and it bruised my overweening ego. He even gambled our friendship over a girl whom I never loved anyway. Aside from my bruised ego, I was also hurt physically because Carlo was more build up than I. I hurriedly went to my favorite spot in the building to pacify myself from anger and to escape from humiliation. I was still grasping for my breath when I heard someone humming my favorite song. I don’t know what to do at that time because I was torn between listening her soft and sweet voice that soothes into my ears, or confront her for trespassing my favorite place and invading my privacy as well; but then, I preferred the latter. When I rummaged the place to know where the voice came from, I was dumbfounded to see Agnes. All of a sudden, I found her beautiful at that time especially when her hair danced with the wind and fell perfectly into place. I was enchanted by Agnes’ hidden beauty. But when I felt my lips ached, I suddenly realized why on earth I was standing right then and there. I abruptly approached Agnes and confronted her.
“Hey! What are you doing here? Don’t you know that you disturbed me and invaded my privacy?” I asked her coldly.
To my surprise, Agnes did not answer me but stare at me. I was about to demand for an explanation for disregarding my question but instead she offered me her handkerchief. I was befuddled by her action not until I realized that she was actually staring at my distend lips. I guiltily accepted her handkerchief and wiped the smeared blood. Before I could utter a ‘Thank you’ and apologized for being so mean, she spoke coyly.
“I’m so sorry for disturbing you… for invading your privacy. I… I really don’t know that you were here. I’m leaving as soon as possible. I’m sorry…” then she walked away.
I was left speechless and guilty. I thought she would defend herself and throw insulting words at me. I felt so bad. Yet, I felt so happy because I was able to hear her sweet voice and discover the inner beauty beyond what she always carries. I promised to myself that I will make it up to her first thing in the morning.
Lucky enough, Agnes and I were classmates in one of my subjects. My attention was focused to Agnes. I did not mind all the rumors and gossips that the students feast on. All that matters to me was Agnes. I walked in school as if nothing really happened. When I arrived in our classroom, I was already expecting that Agnes was in her usual place reading books. But to my surprise, there was no trace of Agnes. I was starting to fret because it was the first time that Agnes was not yet around and we’re about to start our class. A few minutes later, Agnes came in. I sighed in relief when I saw her. When she entered the room, she gave me a quick glance and proceeded to her seat.
