A Princess For Christmas (Of The Dreams We Seek)

Thirty- six

So, she decided that when she will get out next day, she will ask her mother if she let her trave with her friends and experience new things. If she is going to die then she will do it at her own terms and she will go happily. 

She deserves to gift herself that right at least. Avni knew that somewhere inside she had forgiven Callahan already for all he had did to her. But her heart is very bitter. Maybe it will stay this way and will never heal. 

Maybe she cannot smile as she used to but that doesn't mean that she will not even try and smile. Again, she deserves to give herself that much for making all people happy all around her. All the time. 

There is so much happiness a person can give to you. So much happiness that a person can bestow upon the world before running out of it all. She should have known that, to keep something for herself. To keep that little piece of paradise just for herself. She touched the scrapbook and the picture. She must forget that happened in her life. 

She must forget that it was somewhere she had ever been too. She must forget she had someone name Callahan in her life. She must let go of it. All of it. She must let go of him. She must let go of all of his memories. But she cannot. It wasn't easy. She cannot forget him. Callahan was very right she had left her heart there with him.

 She wasn't sure about his heart though. Once he married her, he would easily forget anything that was related to her. He would forget those words he had written. And soon after she will be wiped from his memories and after him every single one of them will forget she existed ever. Maybe it will be for better. Maybe that should what had been happened since beginning. 

If she had stuck with the plans then this wouldn't have ever happened. Never had happened.

Dear Avni,

As the leaves turns the colour red, it reminds me of how you used to blush, every time you accidentally catch me looking at you. I remember how much you were excited when the first time we went for the boat ride on the bake. 

Now still when I sit here and write this to you. The sun sets the same way at the horizon, the birds return home at the same hour. The rays still create a beautiful painting filled with many, many colours I cannot even count. All is the same, except for one thing, you.

The person who showed me all the magic happening around me. The person who made me think by a new perspective. One who made me appreciate the true beauty that had surrounded me. 

The snow is so beautiful this year covering the pine forest, so you remember that place? I hope you do because it is the first place, I ever shown you that was not laced with any kind of Royal infestation as you used to call it.

And it is the first place I saw the real you. The one I had hard time accepting existed. You are the first person whoever made me rethink my decision. As a Prince and as a man. But right now even when I saw all their happy faces, I cannot help but miss yours.

 And I admit I was the one at fault. I was the one who should have told you so that you would not felt betrayed. Still I wish you were here, Christmas is around the corner, and I wished only for you to be around, as we promised.

I know I have broken that heart of yours. But it wasn't my intention at all. I cannot even imagine how betrayed you have felt. If for some reason you find it in your heart to forgive me for my actions, and let me become your friend once again.

 It will be like my most precious Christmas wish to be come true. As it is a season of hope and cheers, I was hoping that somehow, you will be able to find it in your heart to forgive my foolishness, and come back to where you belong. By our side, mine and Serafina's side. She misses you too much and I don't know what to do at this point.