my little fantasy

the fantasy begins

So the story all begins when I saw this girl in the cast of the movie DIARY NG PANGET and I started crashing her, but the fantasy does not begins that way it begins when I saw her again in MTV Pinoy she was a Vj and she is more beautiful not like before when I watch the trailer of the movie and she have got my atention so I have putted my interest on her by that time, I started by taking some pictures of her in the internet and making it my phone's wallpaper, looking at her picture every night before sleeping, when I wake up in the morning and when reviewing making her as my inspiration for everything, I tried to destruct my self by playing computer, gadgets and watching Tv just for me to stop thinking of her because last night I have stayed awake till like 1:15 midnight watching her music videos on youtube, I search some about her like when is her birthday how old she is and if she have a boyfriend, the last news I knew is that she and her boyfriend broke up so I just yaled that her boyfriend is stupid for breaking up with such a wonderful girl she is.... she's a dancer, singer, actor, vj, and etc..... and its his lost! If you just know that their are a thousand of guys like me dreaming that even just for a day she will be my girlfriend wich in the matter of fact will never be me couse this is just my little fantasy (facing the truth and it hurts! seriously...)

I have never been this crazy to a girl that I just dont know why Im steel dreaming of this fantasy that one day I will be telling everyone that shes my girl, well honestly better than facing the truth is dreaming it even if its not going to happen, I actually might be out of this very complicated problem if I just can compare her to someone but I just realized that even dough I compare her as much as I can I realized that I just cant compare her to anyone and anything in this world, shes all I need... (for someone whos reading my story, thinking if who is the girl getting me crazy? Well keep on reading this one chapter story to discover this celebrity, well if your from the Philippines I think you know who is the answer... back to the fantasy) me thinking of the future she might be older than me but a relationship is not going to stop working because age does matter and not the reason to stop loving her, 'men, love!' Seriously why am I in love to a girl that I have never been with and does not even know me and that I have existed! Very complicated huh... but it gives good filing to love that even dough it hurts you steel choose loving her, just hoping in my mind and in my dreams that she will be mine, deep in my heart what ever happend loving her is steel the same, If I wait for day, weaks, months, or years I will wait just for her to come back and be my girl but their is no one to wait as I said in these story she dont know me Yassi Pressman dont know that I existed! so I said it, its Yassi that gets me nervous knowing if shes a nice person, kind or caring but I dont have any idea who is yassi Pressman all I just want to said and tell the world is that I love her, this is crazy! Love? Why is my brain tells me to stop but my heart keep on telling me to love her, and dont stop dreaming of her, my brain is thinking if it was wrong to believe or right to fight for her that at least I dont just let her go cause I did everything that I can and that I will never will give up on her till end my heart will still be yours... reason why I dont want to hear love songs? its because I imagine this fantasies about her that my heart chooses to follow, then I choose what I really think that makes me happy even dough its a fantasy, its what my heart tells me to do... she is a celebrity star and she is so high that I cant even reach her. Every night me looking to the moon thinking if shes also looking to it just to feel that we were just together and shes not that far, its ok to me to feel that because looking to the moon every night give me hope that my fantasy steel will happen just like destiny that we belong together... and this is all just a test on how my feelings will fight for her