When We Lost Each Other | TaeGyu Fanfiction

>SUMMER TEN<

~SUMMER TEN~

+You didn't have to do that+

My Gyu,

First of all yes, I followed you because I saw your posts and tweets. That girl was supposed to leave me alone because I wanted to see you. I wanted to took a glance even just from afar, but that girl won't let me, after what happened to that gathering she began to doubt me. My privacy was invaded by her over and over again, and I hate it. She's more annoying and greedy than my sasaengs.

I watched you secretly, I saw how frustrated you were. I saw how you panicked because of us, I saw everything. I saw how you ran away from us. I saw those painful glimpses from your eyes again. I'm sorry that you had to see me with her, she's annoying.

You were acting strong back then, you got tired of pretending didn't you? I understand that you got tired but why did you do that thing? Why tried to kill yourself? You know I can't live without you so why did you do it? I know I am being stupid here because I know that I was the reason why you did it. I know I was the reason why you tried to killed yourself. But it's bad, it was wrong to kill other people and of course, it was more awful to take your own life!

I know how much you wanted to escape from this cruel reality! I know how much you wanted to ran away, because. I felt the same as you did. I got tired and up until now I am still tired of pretending in front of everyone! I am tired of making them happy when I couldn't even do that for myself! You were the only one who could make me happy but they took you away from me! They're are selfish!

If only you could read this, you would know how mad I am, not to you, but to everyone who took our happiness and freedom away. I couldn't even write this chapter properly without crying, because I remember how Huening Kai went inside the agency of mine and he punched me, he never thought about our friendship because he was mad at me. He kept on shouting that it was all my fault, I told the guards to let him punched me but didn't listen to me and kicked him out and didn't have a chance to ask him why.

He was blaming me because you tried to kill yourself. I don't pity you for being like that. I pity myself because I wasn't there, if I was there you would have someone to hold onto. If I was there and didn't leave you behind, you would have been happy genuinely.

You said that you won't stop killing yourself, you did not cut yourself or choke yourself. You said you want to die in a gradual way, so you were not taking care of your health. You know I would be mad at you if you dare to do it again, I wished I was there to stop you. You treated your wrist like a paper and you cut it! You treated your body like a some clothes and you hang it! I badly want to run away too but I know I couldn't... how dare you? How dare you to torture me like this? Am I that bad for you?

PLAGIARISM IS A CRIME
@zaydeemon