I scroll through my twitter feed and respond to a couple of fans. They miss us.
I miss us too... If only they knew how bad we were being fucked by our management, I'm sure they'd understand.
My scrolling ceases when the name I see the name of the person I go to sleep thinking about and wake up longing for.
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I had no idea he was working on anything, but how would I have known? We haven't spoken in over two years. I still think about him all the time, but I am starting to move on and meet new people.
I'm really torn weather or not to listen to his new song. I'm sure it's lovely - everything he writes is incredible. I feel like it would undo all the progress I have made to get over him and us.
As if my phone is reading my fucking thoughts, another tweet from him shows up in my feed.
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Shit, kid's on a roll...
I'm about to log off since I can't seem to escape my past, but particular tweet catches my eye.
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I wasn't going to do this, I've finally been able to build up my walls and move on from him. Of course I still care about him, I always will. I've just started being okay without him, and I'm concerned that they could come crashing down for him in an instant.
My curiosity gets the best of me, and I click the link to his song, Sweet Creature.
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The beginning guitar piece sounds similar to Blackbird, by The Beatles, which he would sing to me all the time during our time in X Factor. He knows how much that song means to me, my mum would sing it to us growing up.
His sweet voice rings through my headphones and I close my eyes, pretending I'm laying on his chest while he sings.
"Sweet creature Had another talk about where it's going wrong. But we're still young, We don't know where we're going But we know where we belong. And oh we started, Two hearts in one home. It's hard when we argue. We're both stubborn I know, but oh, Sweet creature, sweet creature. Wherever I go, you bring me home. Sweet creature, sweet creature, When I run out of road, you bring me home. Sweet creature, We're running through the garden Oh, where nothing bothered us. But we're still young. I always think about you, and how we don't speak enough. And oh we started, Two hearts in one home. I know, it's hard when we argue. We're both stubborn I know, but oh. Sweet creature, sweet creature, Wherever I go, you bring me home. Sweet creature, sweet creature When I run out of road, you bring me home. ~~ I know when we started, Just two hearts in one home. It gets harder when we argue, We're both stubborn I know, but oh Sweet creature, sweet creature. Wherever I go, you bring me home Sweet creature, sweet creature, When I run out of road, you bring me home. You'll bring me home.
By the end of the song, my cheeks are wet with tears.
I knew this wouldn't be good for my mental state.
Harry's POV
"Harry, you've got a new song out today, Sweet Creature. We've played it on our station twice this morning, it's lovely. We've gotten hundreds of callers from listeners today, all with the same question. Is Sweet Creature about your relationship with Louis Tomlinson? If you listen to the lyrics, Two hearts, one home, it get's hard when we argue, we're both stubborn. Fans are insisting that it's about Louis... Is it?" Cara, the radio show host asks me, voice genuine.
"I mean, ah, pff, well, um, like, I think people will always speculate what songs are about, and I don't think I'd ever want to tell someone that they're wrong, uhm, for feeling how they feel about a song even though it's not necessarily right. Um, you know I think, um, I think uh, the fun is you get to, uh, write a song and you'll get to say all that you want to say on it, and you don't have to necessarily explain it further than that," I pull an answer put of my ass, avoiding the question.
Of course it's about Louis. Who else would it be about?
"Ahhh," Cara nods along, noting my discomfort.
"But I think if you really listen to the lyrics, you can work out if it's about that or not, and I would lean towards not," I rush out, trying to diffuse the situation.
"Alright, well regardless whoever it's about, it is truly a magnificent song," Cara compliments me, calming my nerves.
