One cut for being ugly. Two for being a disappointment. Three for never being good enough. Four for weighing down BTS. And five for still being alive. As Jimin and BTS grow far apart, they begin to abuse him physically and mentally. Fighting for his last bit of sanity, Jimin must choose. Life or Death? [ WARNING ] May Be Triggering For People Who Have Experienced Eating Disorders, Depression, and Abuse.

*Rebooted from the original* Jimin has always struggled with self-love. The only difference was that before he was left alone he had other people to love him, other friends he could make happy. If everyone around him loved him, why would he need to love himself? But then it changed, his friends became the very reason he hated himself. They taunted him, physically and verbally assaulted him every day, and made him terrified to leave his house for school anymore. The only question is, why? Why did they become another group of his bullies? In the beginning Jimin swore there was a reasonable answer. But over time Jimin's mind became tainted by their words and the only thing he could do was blame himself for how they treated him. His lack of self-love quickly turn into self-hatred. His hate-filled thoughts plagued him every day. They crept into his mind at the worst times and made him want to do evil things. They wanted him to hurt himself, they wanted him to kill himself, and they wanted him to punish himself. Who can save him from this disease that taints his mind so much, and will they be enough to spare him from an early demise? Update 1/15/21: Fic is currently on hold. Not discontinued but I don't plan on updating anytime in the near future. Warnings: bullying, self harm, starvation,depression, and suicide ATTEMPTS. Do not read if you have been through this. Also a schizophrenic character, mentions of domestic abuse, etc. Thank you @yoonmin_swaeg for the wonderful cover ❤️