⚠️WARNING: THIS BOOK IS MATURE⚠️ This story contains - longer chapters than most fanfics - sex - blood/abuse - violence - medical words - difficult words like 'svelte' - music [which will never be necessary to understand the book] . . . BLURB: Derek's catches Addison cheating on him with Finn. Finn is Derek's identical twin. Derek leaves NY and moves into the trailer in Seattle. Upon meeting Meredith, he starts to have panic attacks in his sleep. In his dreams, Derek meets his subconscious. Meredith helps Derek through his problems. . . . Tiktok + Instagram: goldempaddy . . . [I did not think that i had to type this but: anyone who makes fun of (rudely) or begins name calling in the cmt section will loose my respect and the respect of all my tiktok and instagram fans]

Patrick is called back to greys... what happens when neither of Ellen or Patrick's spouses come along?